Heartless

A/N

If you're reading this I am going to upload the next chapter right after this.

Okay so I'm going to start off this authors note talking abut Zayn.

Almost half of the fandom is mad at him for producing music with Naughty Boy. I don't blame them for being mad.

I'm somewhat disappointed with him. He said that he wanted a normal life, which I thought it meant that he wanted to just chill for a few months without the boys, which I was completely fine about. It's not until I saw that he started producing music with Naughty Boy, I started feeling betrayed.

I will still support the boys, and him, because I can't stay mad at him. He doesn't deserve all the hate that's going around about him and naughty boy. I understand if you're mad at him for producing music, for-dare I say-lying about wanting a normal life. But maybe this is what he wants.

If I was in Zayn's position, I would feel very overwhelmed about this whole situation.

Remember, he stayed to keep us happy. He stayed because he didn't want to see us sad. He made us feel wanted. But we didn't see how much pain was going though him as he did this. He realized this wasn't what he wanted anymore.

I love Zayn with all my heart. Feeling betrayed by him, it just feels sickening.

Please, don't be mad at him for what he did. It must hurt him to see the fans that supported him, turn on him almost instantly.

And Naughty Boy? I don't want to rile you guys up, but it's partially his fault. I don't like him at all, for one. I get a bad feeling about him. Maybe it's because he sort of manipulated Zayn in someway.

We don't know the whole story. The only information we get is from tabloids that create rumors, and tear people apart.

I'm waiting. Waiting for the day that Zayn tweets, explaining everything we need to know. Hell a video of him talking about it would make me feel better. I just want to know if he's okay, if this is what he really wants, I'll support him.

And if he realizes that producing music alone isn't him and wants to come back? I'll welcome him with open arms.

I'm still in that state where I still have hope he'll come back. But there's a louder voice saying that he won't, that he made up his mind.

It seems like yesterday I got the news that he left. I'm still feeling the pain I felt on that day. I'm still picturing the future of the boys without him. I'm still...hurt.

Zayn wants to take a break and produce music on his own. I'm totally fine with that.

I just hope one day, he realizes that he's missing the boys and us, and comes back.

~smileforzayn