Heartless

Chapter 29

Zayn's POV

I watch as my apartment door opens, revealing the boys as they all walk in.

"You f.ucked up so much Zayn," Louis says. I don't reply as I watch them sit on the seats.

What the hell have I done? Does this mean that we're through? Does Carissa want to break things off between us?

"Do you even know how much damage you've caused her?" He asks again, and again I don't reply.

"I love you," I hear her voice say inside me head.

"I love you too," I say back to her, but it's like she's ignoring me.

"Are you even f.ucking listening to me?" Louis pushes me but I don't budge.

"Not really," I sigh, finally moving as I stand up.

"How are you going to get her back again huh?" Louis still tries to press on the subject, but I don't grow angry at all.

"I don't know," I tell them as I walk to my bedroom. They follow me as I take off my jeans, climbing into bed.

"You don't know?" He says, sounding slightly surprised. "Don't you want her back?"

I think for a moment. Do I want her back? Obvious answer; of course I do.

"Yeah," I say bluntly, pulling the covers over my body.

"What are you doing then?"

"I don't know Lou," I look at him standing at the foot of my bed. "What do you expect me to do? Walk up to your place, knock on the door and apologize to her, hoping that she accepts it? That's almost exactly why happened last time, and we almost broke up. What the h.ell do you expect me to do without being criticized by you?" He seems taken back but straightens himself out as he speaks.

"She's not at our place Zayn," that statement causes me to sit up, giving him a look of confusion.

"Her parents?" I guess, but he shakes his head too.

"Who?"

"James," Harry steps up. "She's staying at James' flat."

I don't feel angry, of even jealous, which surprises me. What the h.ell am I feeling?

"Oh..." Is all I can say as I lay back down.

"You're not mad? Jealous?" Liam asks me as I shake my head in response.

"What the h.ell is going on with you?" Louis asks me, hearing slight concern coming from him.

"Maybe," I take a deep breath before continuing, "maybe we're done."

"Done?" They all say in unison, causing me to nod my head, taking what I just said.

"I'm just not cut out for relationships you know? What was the point anyway?" I tell them.

"You want to break things off with her?" Louis' eyes widen as I shrug.

"If she wants to then so be it."

"F.uck you," Louis states.

I sit up and look at him, slightly angered at him.

"What?" I narrow my eyes at him.

"I said," he places his hands on his hips, "f.uck you."

"F.uck you too man," I roll my eyes at him.

"Louis, stop before he hits you," Liam tries to whisper.

"I don't care anymore," Louis says back as I suddenly feel someone pulls my arm with force that I fall on the floor.