When Love Lasts x Jemily

Chapter 15

TW: this may be hard for some to read, I don't want to spoil but the specific trigger warning is at the bottom of the chapter so scroll down to see.

Emily pov:
The second the video started playing my heart dropped. Who the hell was and how did they get the footage? I didn't even know there was security cameras. I grabbed JJ's hand holding it tightly. We watched the video start. It was the hospital room.

*flashback to a little after Emily's "death"*
(Okay so this flashback is basically what's playing on the screen just btw)

*context- so before this actual scene*
The IED set by Askari to kill JJ's baby had just went off. JJ was rushed to a hospital in Europe, and she called me so of course I came.

Matt had already told her that the baby girl had died. She was too far along that they had to do a half birth, so she had to actually give birth to the baby even though there was no chance of survival.

*start of video*
JJ had called my and I had rushed to the hospital. JJ was laying the in the hospital bed in a gown writhing around in pain.

"Emily." She breath out. I went and sat next to her holding her hand. She was crying out in pain and then vomited over the edge of the bed.

"You're almost there I promise I know it hurts but you have to keep going" the ob said.

JJ didn't even register what she had said. She just screamed out in pain over and over again.

The doctor came over to me. "I really don't know what to do. I always tell women "just one more push and you'll have a baby." "Just keep doing this and you'll finally meet your baby." I can't motivate her to keep trying when there's nothing at the end of the tunnel." She sighed.

I knelt down in front of JJ. She screamed again louder this time. "Look it's almost over okay it'll be over soon." I said holding her hand.

"Emily I can't do this. I can't do this. I can't." She whimpered. "Yes you can. You can do this." I said. "No I can't I can't I CANT." She screamed.

I climbed into the bed and sat behind her holding her tightly. Finally she managed to push one more time and delivered the baby.

Expect there was not crying. There was not congratulations. Holding your baby for the first time is supposed to be the best moment of your life. But I think for JJ, that day, was the worst.

The doctor placed the tiny little baby in JJ's arms. The doctor came over looking very sad. She checked the babies heart beat one last time, and there was nothing. She looked down at her watch. "Time of death: 9:08" she called.

JJ just cried and screamed and cursed everything that ever existed. It took all of my strength to not cry looking at JJ holding her tiny little baby girl and begging for her to wake up.
*end of flashback/video*

Before the video turned off the was words that came across the screen. "You killed your own baby. You are a monster."

JJ got up and sprinted to the bathroom and I followed close behind her.

When I walked in I saw JJ on the floor throwing up into the toilet. I sat down behind her not saying anything. I held her hair back and rubbed her back.

Finally she looked up. "I'm sorry JJ." I said softly. "I killed my baby." She said her hand trembling. "No. No you did not. Askari killed her. He is the only one responsible for this." I said.

"You saw the video. I killed her. I was her mother. I was supposed to protect her and I failed. I failed her and now she's dead." JJ choked out her voice cracking.

A few tears fell down her face but she quickly wiped them away. "JJ you did everything you could. Nothing you could have done would have stopped what had happened. Only Askari. He did this. He is a murderer." I said grabbing her hand.

"I love you JJ." I said pulling her close to me. "I love you too." She said hugging me back. I helped her stand up and she splashed some cold water on her face.

We walked out of the bathroom and back into the briefing room. Everyone looked sad and devastated. "JJ we're sorr-" Spencer stared but JJ cut him off. "It's fine. Let's just go back to the case."

Everyone nodded. Then I remembered something. "Hey where the hell is Jess? She wasn't here yesterday or today?" I asked curiously. "Oh my god. I was so busy with whole poising this I didn't even realize that she wasn't here." Hotch said.

It all hit everyone at the same time. "Okay so I'm just going to say the elephant in the room here. We all know that Jess is pretty much in love with Emily." Morgan said looking at me. Everyone just nodded. I mean it's true it wasn't really a secret.

"So hear me out- Obviously Jess wouldn't like who Emily is now engaged too, so what if she went as far as to kill her way to the throne?" Morgan said.

Everyone looked a bit shocked but it did make sense. She had access to the bau, and JJ's office. The motive was clear, she didn't show up for work, how did no one else see this before?

"Wait- so this is Jess who's trying to kill me?" JJ said still a bit shocked. "I think it might be." Hotch said sternly staring at the table. Everyone was pretty much too shocked to say anything else.

"Why don't you guys head home for right now. I'll have security guards at your house. I think that it's the best choice for both of you right now." Hotch said standing up. JJ and I nodded.

"Okay I'll grab my stuff from my office and be right there." JJ said walking out towards her office.

I started to follow her when I heard JJ scream. I ran towards the door. "Jess?" JJ screamed.

TW: half-birth pregnancy loss/ trauma miscarriage