When Love Lasts x Jemily

Chapter 18

JJ's pov:
I had been planning the wedding with Emily for about 2 weeks now. I had always wanted a summer wedding, and it was spring. I wanted to have it this year and so did Emily. So we were planning on having it within the next 2-3 months.

I know that's a bit fast, but I'm sure we can do it. Almost everything was done. We had the venue, Emily and I had picked out all the decorations flowers, food, and of course the cake. It was chocolate because that's Emily and my absolute favourite flavour.

We had sent out invitations. It wasn't going to be super big, of course the team. Neither of my parents or Emily's parents were coming. At first I was upset because whenever I imagined it I always imagined my parents and Roz being there with me.

But I've made peace with the fact that my parents aren't going to come. But I don't need them. I have my own family now. And I like to think that my sister is watching down on me from heaven. I always like to think that she would be happy for me.

Emily and I both invited a few friends and some extended family but that's about it. It was probably going to be about 50 people.

Now the only thing left, was wedding dresses. Emily had picked out a dress yesterday with Tara and Derek, who apparently gives great fashion advice. As much as I wanted to see her dress, I knew it was bad luck so I will see it on the wedding day.

I was going dress shopping today with Elle. I was super excited. I had dreamed about picking out my wedding dress since I was a little girl.

I met elle at the coffee shop first before we headed to the dress shop. When I walked inside everything was shiny, white, and bright. "Damn this place is crazy." Elle said with a laugh.

A lady walked up to us. "Hi my names Claire I'm here to help you with whatever you need! So are we looking for a wedding dress today?"

I tried on a million different dresses. They were all either too puffy, or too shiny. They had weird sleeves, or just looked like something someone would where in the 1800s.

On my billionth dress I absolutely fell in love. I walked out to show Elle. "So what do you think?" I said with a grin. "Oh my god JJ you look incredible!" She exclaimed.

It was a white princess dress. It was strapless with flowers on the top and and lace bottom. It was my dream dress. "This is it. This is my wedding dress." I said smiling.

Emily's pov:
JJ is back from her trip with Elle. "Hey I'm home!" She shouts walking through the door. "Hey." I said kissing her lightly. "So did you find the dress?"

A huge smile spreads across her face. "I got a dress!" She squeals. "Im glad. Can you believe it's only 2 months until the wedding?" I smile.

"I for one can't wait." She said giving me a hug and still bubbling with excitement.

-4 days later~
We just finished our latest case. It didn't have the best ending. I could tell that it was pretty hard on JJ but she wouldn't admit it.

She poured everything into this case but we were just too late. She didn't eat, or sleep, or even look up from the file. A 16 year old girl had been burned alive in an abandoned warehouse screaming JJ's name and begging her for help.

We had caught the unsub and we're going home. Hotch had forced JJ and I do take a few days off even though JJ didn't want too. Mine was mainly to look after her.

JJ didn't talk to whole jet ride home. She just stared out the window. Finally we got back to the apartment. "I'm going to go take a shower and then head to bed." She said quickly and heading into the bathroom.

I get in bed and about 20 minutes later JJ comes out of the bathroom in her pyjamas. As she opens the door steam rushes out. "God how hot was the shower?" I say a little concerned. "Just normal." She said casually.

I look closer at her and realize that her skin is slightly red. "Hey come here." I said motioning for her to come sit on the bed with me. Slowly she walks over to the bed and sits down.

"JJ take off your shirt." I say. She looks like she's about to say something, but chooses not too. Reluctantly she pulls off her top.

I examine the red patches of skin all over her. They're burns from the water. I put her top back on and look at her. "You're covered in burns from your shower."

"I don't care." She says coldly, laying down and rolling over so she's not facing me.

I move her so she's facing me again. "JJ. Maybe you don't care but I do."

"I'm sorry." She says so quietly it's barely audible. "Baby you don't have to be sorry. Just- just let me help you. Tell me how to help you."

"I don't know how." She says her eyes brimming with tears. "You wanna tell me what happened?" I ask her pulling her into my arms. She rests her head on my chest. and sits in between my legs.

"I see it. I hear it. Every time I close my eyes it's like I'm back in that warehouse again. The fire. The heat. That little girl screaming out my name begging me for help. And I left her in there. I left her in the building and she got burned alive. I killed her." JJ whispered wiping her eyes.

"You didn't kill her. The unsub killed her." I said. "No. I chose Robert I chose to save him instead of her. If I just could have gotten- maybe she would still be alive."

"Maybe. But if you weren't there then all three of them would be dead. 2 people are alive because of you. You saved those people. There will always be people that we lose, but sadly that's just the world we live in. But I can tell you this. You saved two people today. Because of you they get to live. That makes you a hero."

I rubbed her back pulling her in to kiss her. "Jennifer Jareau I love you." I smiled. "I love you Emily prentiss." She said with a slight laugh.

"You're exhausted. Let's go to sleep." I said laying down with her. She snuggled into my side and I wrapped my arms around her. "Goodnight." She said as I closed my eyes.