Let me love you (a Xiaojun x male reader story ft Yuwin)

Ch 7

The first few weeks are spent unable to sleep. That is until my depression kicks in and then that's all I do is sleep. Laying curled up in a ball in bed I hug myself to try and pull myself together. It's then that I hear Lucas's heavy footsteps walking over to me. "Come on Jiang it's time for practice." I immediately bury myself further under the blankets. "I'm not going. I don't feel well." I hear a deep sigh and then he leaves the room. I let out a breath and end up falling asleep again.

(Lucas's Pov)

Leaving my cousins room I run a hand through my hair in frustration and concern. Walking into the living room I give the others a sad look. "He's not coming. He says he's not feeling well." The others all look just as concerned. Jiang was a little shy at first but he ended up being a bright ray of sunshine for us after he got used to us. Suddenly Xiaojun speaks up. "I'll stay with him. I already have my parts recorded and I can catch up on the dances." I immediately nod and thank him then leave with the other's feelings a little better that Jiang will have someone.

(Jiang's Pov)

Waking up an hour later I get up rubbing my eyes only to pause hearing the tv on. Frowning I get up and cautiously make my way to the living room only to see Xiaojun playing a game. Letting out a relieved breath he turns to me once he wins. "I see your up. How are you feeling?" I shift a little uncomfortably. "I'm okay." He slowly nods then motions to the tv. "Wanna play?" I immediately shake my head no. "I'm gonna get a shower." He nods then goes back to his game while I grab clothes and head to the bathroom. I lock the door and start the water then climb in. Standing underneath the warm spray I let out a sigh. I can feel myself spiraling out of control emotionally. It's like there's a weight on me. Spotting something out of the corner of my eye I blink when I see a razor. Biting my lip I shakily pick it up staring at it. Then I slowly bring it to my arm and press down hard dragging it across my skin. Seeing the blood bubble up only to be washed away I let out a sigh at the feeling. Stopping after three cuts I cut off the water then get out of the shower putting a small bandage on my arm then pull on my long sleeve shirt and pajama pants. I exit the bathroom and head back to my bed ignoring the concerned look coming from Xiaojun.