"Everything for you..."

"So you remember everything?" she asked .
I nodded.
She slapped me. But how will I make her understand that this is not what I intended to do. I could see how heartbroken she was.
"Since when?"
"Since a month........" I paused.
"I have been getting flashbacks but I never told anyone." I completed. I tried to hold my mother but she flinched to my touch . Like she was not ready to accept my touch.
"How could you?" She was still crying .
" I did this for Naitya , I love him." I said it without a guilt .
"ARE YOU CRAZY?" she screamed . She threw my journal at me .
"Yes, I did it and now I want you to keep quite ." I held her because She needs to shut up otherwise Naitya will know everything .

Do you know ? You have that one person in your life , that can change you for better or worse . Naitya was that for me . I think I loved him a little too much that I realised it late. Nobody is perfect , right ?

Mum started sobbing . She looked me in my eyes .
"I accept it , I did it , but I love Naitya and I would do anything for him , that's how much I love him ." I looked her in the eyes.
"You're not my daughter." She said.
"Maybe , maybe not."
"Ankita....." she called me . I looked at her. She slapped me again.
"Stop it ! Why can't you understand why I did what I did." I screamed .
"YOU EXPECT ME TO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU KILLED MANSI?" She sat down on the ground , still sobbing .
"I did it for Naitya, I have already told you. So just stop it and don't say a word in front of Naitya ." I sat with her , patting her head and tried to hold her again. She flinched.

"You're obsessed with Naitya . This is an obsession. It's not normal . " She murmured.

"Maybe , maybe not. But I love him ." I smiled at her.

"Ankita??"
Someone called for me but this time it was not my mother. I froze . I was so afraid to turn around and find out that it's exactly the person I don't want to know any detail about what I did.
I turned .
It was Naitya. He had flowers in his hands . Sunflowers . And his eyes were flooding with tears.
I ran towards him .
"Tell me this is not true."
He didn't let me touch him .
"Naitya , I love you . Really I do." I tried to hold his face.
He slapped my hand.
"JUST TELL ME THIS IS NOT TRUE." he screamed. This was the first time Naitya had ever shouted at me.
I didn't say anything . But Naitya . It was for you . I would do anything for you. Everything for you .
I was crying . I wanted to hug him . Make him understand why I did what I did. He was still standing there looking at me.
"I would do anything for you Naitya , that's how much I love you .....let me make you under-"
"YOU !" His hand went to his forehead, rubbing his temple.
"You expect me to understand you Ankita ?" He whispered . His eyes were red.
I touched his shirt. He took a step back.
"I would do everything for you Naitya." Yes I would. And I will in future as well. I don't have any guilt .

"Why?" He held my shoulders with is hands.
"WHY ANKITA WHY?!" He shouted. Again.
"Because She was in love with you ."