truth or dare

this can't be real......

esther's pov

back to arlington,

virginia

9:15 am

just as i remembered yesterday's events i couldn't help ut but feel scared no not scared terrified i mean i witnessed the death of 2 men i remember feeling dizzy then everything went black i couldn't help it but wonder where was i? what happened yesterday?

how did i get here? and where the hell is tyler ? i mean he has a lot of explanations to do i mean he killed 2 men

i mean he probably has his reasons or maybe he's just a serial killer who likes to kill for his own sick pleasure no that's impossible tyler can't do that i mean it's TYLER we're talking about here julien wouldn't have left me with him

if he didn't trust him a sound snapped me out of my thoughts it was the sound of a door being openned i looked toward the bathroom which is now wide open to reveal a shirtless tyler

his hair was wet which made him look soo hot and eye candy god i should really stop  having those thoughts

he looked up and his eyes met mine i noticed that his eyes widened like  he wasn't expecting me to be awake he blinked to make sure that i was really there i just gave him a confused look which made him snapped out of it

"you're awake" said tyler his voice sounding shocked and nervous but it's still sexy and husky as it always have been

"no shit sherlock" i said a little harsh which made me feel guilty instantly but  i kept my poker face which is completly emotionless

"listen i know you're mad at me and you have every right to be i mean i ......"started tyler 

but i interrupted him and said

"why did you kill them?" i said looking at him with a look that could be considered a glare but i didn't care at the moment

"i did it to protect you if i didn't kill them they would have killed us " 

"wait wha??this has nothing to do with me you...." i said but this time he interrupted me and said

"this has everything to do with you they were both dangerous and they were sent here to eliminate what was left of our gang .....*

*what do you mean what was left of our gang? what happened to the gang? where is julien ? and where the hell are we?" i said my voice louder with each question

"listen esther there is something that i have to tell you something happened we were outnumbered julien is .............." tyler looked like he was trying real hard to find the right words to  say

"yeah?" i said mentionning for him to go on

"he's dead esther* whispered tyler loud for me to hear

"what? no he's not he can't be i just got him he can't die he can't leave me i need him " i said tears were flowing like a river out of my eyes

i couldn't control the sobs my brother the only family that i had left is gone they say life can be hard sometimes but this is.......... i already lost my parents and everything

i bit my lips trying to hold back a sob i felt arms wrap around me pulling to them i breathe in tyler's smell i held on to him as i cried

*it's ok*whispered tyler

*no it's not tyler* i said as i cried harder

*everything is no ok my brother is dead i have no one my god julien no no no no no* 

*shhh sweetheart i'm right here* 

*no i'm all alone you'll probably leave me too and you should who would want to stay with me anyways my parents......." I was shaking by now unable to process this tragic cycle that i call life that keeps taking the ones i love

"they're gone and now julien is gone too i'm never gonna be able to see him i bring nothing but misery and death to the people around me i should go *i  continued as i pulled away from and stood up

*esther i'm never gonna leave you i'll always be here for u * said tyler as he stood up and tried to reach out for me but i took a step back

his words made it even worse for me it reminded me of that day.............................