Destructive love

It's time

We all lined up as we got ready to go to assembly.
The time when Harry would reveal his where abouts to the whole school.
The whole wizarding world as it be.
Mattheo kept his head down, he'd styled his hair differently maybe to look less himself? I wasn't sure.
He stood close to me as we all walked down the stairs, almost charging like a army.

He ducked his head more as we walked past the Roy twins who stood tall, looking for anybody who might appose Snape.
His hand snaked into mine, our fingers intertwining.
I glance his way, his eyes were on the floor  he looked nervous.
I've never seen his this frightened before-

That was a lie-
Only once before-
When he begged for Bellatrix to leave me alone-
His voice was cracked it only got louder as did my screams-
I shivered remembering that, he must of noticed as
His hand squeezes mine tighter snapping me out of the flash back.

Mattheo Riddle PoV
I had ducked my head as low as I could.
I was terrified, but as soon as my hand reached for hers and she didn't pull away , I calmed instantly.
Not all my anxiety was gone but it was a lot better then before.

Her hand was warm, welcoming and I couldn't think of anything else except her soft hand in mine as we walked down thoses steps with a purpose.
I wished things were different, that I never helped my father with the cabinet, never went to the meetings.
Never left her.

We walked into the hall quietly, not like how it use to be.
I always felt like an outsider, watching everyone else through a tv screen.
That I was so different from the rest of the other students.
But now I realised I was wrong, we were all the same now.
Scared,determined and tired.

We all stood with a line across our mouths if someone saw us they would think we'd never smiled.
We all looked the same.
We were the same deep down.
Snape stood at the front looking at us with slitted eyes like he knew something we didn't.

Something was wrong-
I could feel it, the sort of feeling that made me shuffle y/n closer to me just in case.
He starts walking down the middle of the hall, almost looking for something.
Or someone.
I doubt it would be me?

It could be?
I wouldn't know until Snape spoke , I'm guessing y/n thought it was me considering I felt her shuffle closer too me.
She stepped in front of me slightly almost like if Snape even threatened to step closer she'd kill him.

No ones ever done that for me before-
It made me realise that this moment was very much real.
"I'm guessing your all wondering why your here" his voice was the same dull tone it had always been.
"Your here because it's come to my attention that Harry Potter has been spotted in Hogsmead"
Everybody gasped.

Everybody started whispering to each other-
Have you seen him?
No?

I heard he's hiding in a classroom!
Surely not?

We are all going to die!
He's going to get us killed!

Danm Potter for bringing us into this!
I want this to be over.
Me too.

I bet his friends are here too!
He's back?
He can't be??!

That's all I kept hearing...
People accusing him, accusing each other.
Scared and angry voices drowned the hall.
I didn't say a word.
Y/n leans into me "I've got you" she whispers squeezing my hand again.
Her soft voice was so different from the ones that were around her, overpowering voices.

I nod slightly, scared if I spoke that someone, anyone would see me.
"Enough!" Snape gets everyone's attention again.
Making people snap their mouths shut instantly.
"If anyone, student or staff try to aid Mr Potter they will be punished" all our heads bow down not wanting to draw attention.

"If any of you have knowledge of Potter'S whereabouts- step forward noww" his voice strained the words to be longer.
He walked down the middle coming to a hault as he stopped speaking.

Everybody was silent, their was no movement.
I was waiting , waiting for everything to blow up.
As if on cue everybody whipped round gasping as Harry stepped out.
"How dare you stand where he stood! A man who trusted you! And killed him!" His voice echoed through the hall.
I shuffled closer if that was even possible, closer to y/n.

We were almost pushing against each other-
We couldn't get any closer if we tried.
The next thing I knew the doors were opening
Revealing the army.
Dumbledore's army.
Harry's army.
The army that would fight to the death if they had too.

I actually felt like I was apart of something bigger.
Bigger then love hate. Good and evil.
I wasn't fighting for myself anymore.
I wasn't only fighting for y/n either, looking round at these kids Ive grown up with.
Scared, hopeful even some were vengeful.
I would fight for them-
Because I had helped, I had gotten them into this mess I was about to help them get out of it.
It wasn't about getting them or Y/n to forgive me- it was about me excepting who I am as well.
Me forgiving myself.

Snape whips out his wand, making everyone jump back towards the walls that were keeping us in.
My instinct was to get y/n out the way.
I push her behind me shielding her from whatever danger would come too her.
I could hear her grunt as she trips probably because I was pushing her too hard, too fast, too fast for her feet to carry her.

She holds the back of my arms never fully falling to the ground.
Her chest hits my back as we watch the scene play out.
McGonagle firing shots at her friend.
Her colleague.
It was surreal.
"You don't always have to protect me you know" I could hear y/n whisper, I look behind to see that her mouth was shut.

I smile at the girl.
She learnt.
She learnt how to pass messages and I didn't block them.
I don't think she even realised she'd done it.
She looks at me obviously feeling my eyes on her.
She looked at me with a light confused smile.
Almost saying 'what?'
I coughed slightly looking back at the duel.
Snape soon escapes out a window leaving us, we'd won this battle.

Harry runs up to McGonagle, she asks him what he needs.
That's when fighting breaks out between houses.
Some were ready to help , and others not so much.
Which was understandable.
That's when we all hear a whisper-
I recognised it instantly.
My father.
I look towards Y/n , she was covering her ears not wanting to hear his slimy voice.

"Bring Harry Potter and you all live, if you don't you will all die"
"Die die die-" the word echoes through everyone's mind.
Scaring people even more.
"Someone grab him!" A random hufflepuff speaks out.
As does a small ginger boy from slytherin.
"I agree!" He speaks.

I don't move my feet wouldn't move.
That's when Y/n gets out of my grip running toward Harry.
I watch as she does.
I almost felt like eyes were on me- even though they weren't I felt pressure. Guilt.
She stands in front of him, protecting him from all the students who wanted to hand him in.
"Move!" I hear someone tell y/n
That's when I walk out of the crowd, standing with y/n , protecting the boy I hate.

Everybody gasps looking at the teachers, at each other-
They knew it was me-
They knew I let the death eaters in.
"Hand him in too!" I hear another shout as they all start to agree with each other.
"Stop! This is what he wants!" Y/n shouts as everybody snaps there head towards her.
"She's right! If you don't want
to fight then-" Harry didn't know what to say and that's when McGonagle speaks.

"If you don't want to fight put your hand up!" She shouts.
A few students put their hand up , all of them being different houses.
"Ok take these students too the Dungeons to keep them safe" she demands as they all get led down to the area.

"Right! All the teachers with me! And neville come on I need to speak with you" she walks fast toward the outside.
Me and y/n follow her as all the students get ready.
"Like blow it up? Like boom?!" Neville wasn't sure.
"Boom! Now go bring the others to help you" she demands.
Y/n offers to help the clumsy boy , he excepts and we all go to the bridge.