COTE one-shots

Breaking Point

Love.

A feeling that I hadn't felt in a very long time ever since.

The term of that word surely has a deep meaning behind it but the only issue was I lost it. Everything that I should feel like a normal human being is gone. 

Because I am not normal. And I thought I'll never be able to return those kind of emotions anymore. I redeem those kind of feelings as the embodiment of uselessness. I do not need to feel those kind of absurd stuff if it's only going to affect my whole life. It is nothing to me and it'll never be useful to me.

Atleast…until I that's what I thought I would be my entire life. It turns out I was wrong.

A new feeling was created within me ever since I've made my actual first friends. It is called a bond. I've rejected this new feeling before but as time goes on, I slowly start to change my perspective for it. 

For some reason, having this new perspective everytime I'm with the Ayanokouji Group makes me feel, enlightened. I can be free whenever I'm around with them with no problems whatsoever. It feels…refreshing…and I don't mind having it once in a while. With all these problems I've had with dealing with the other classes, the white room students, and my old man, 
it's been non-stop work that would disrupt my peaceful life. 

Now that the whole white room is gone all because of a certain director, this school doesn't bring me troublesome issues anymore. If it does however, I'll leave it up to Horikita this time. I just want to enjoy the peaceful life along with my friends I've made along with a cute and beautiful girlfriend which is Kei.

Speaking of Kei, I thought of her first as just a notebook. Trying to learn about love is a difficult thing, but I have Kei to thank to that but once she has done her job, she won't be useful for me anymore…

But somehow or someway…she manage to crack the code of the pathway into me. It's more of like she made me whole again. Brought back what was missing in my entire life ever since it was taken away from me.

Which was love.

I thought that maybe…just maybe…Kei is the answer to bring back everything I ever need to become a normal person again. To experience my whole youth just with her. Maybe if it was even possible…she will be the light of my life through the inner darkness of my heart. 

I thought maybe…she's the one I truly need into the point were we would grow old together.

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It turns out I was wrong. Again.

"Kiyotaka…I'm really sorry but…we have to break up…"

No matter how many times I repeat it inside my mind, it'll always be the same thing I ever hear…especially those last two words.

For some reason I feel like there was something that was taken from me, hiding inside me as I can feel it in my chest. It's a missing piece that can't explain enough as I don't understand how or why I am feeling this.