Don't worry... "I'm okay"

Friends

Chapter 5

Friends. Friends are the reason why suicidal rates are high. Friends can be the worst but still be the best, and trust me, one thing I know is attaching to someone that you know is the right person for you and you love them to the existent where you prepared to take a bullet for them and treat them like there a precious cargo and what's so annoying and painful is when they backstab you and hurt you so much that your unable to function which sucks cause while your devastated

They are the happiest people but friends can be good for you, a really good competition, a good influence but I have to warn you there are bad, cruel, rude, people out there with a face that can blind the eye, those assholes are fake friends and they are hard to find but doesn't mean their rare, fake friends are one of the presences of the devil's work, fake friends will eliminate your presence slowly and extinct your self-view. Those people come in different packages first kind; they appear like they care and get in tale on you and spread it around like human virus,

Second they discourage you, criticize you and really build up a wall of insecurity,

the third honestly needs a prayer these don't even try and hide it but some people still want to consider them as friends like I said "people out there are like a human vision that can blind the human eye" I've had many fake friends but all ended up actually being my true friends how I had that possible I don't know but the mistake that I made is taking revenge, revenge feels good but it has an after effect that can haunt you because you were hurt by the same action so you took the time to stoop to their level and ruin everything in your mental state which now is a huge issue because now you seem like the bad person

it's never the case that the victim is innocent or had an innocent motive it's like murder most murders have different motives the first; accidental that's self-explanatory they kill you by mistake now if you do that in the back of your mind your thinking I'm going to jail so you tell yourself that that can't happen so you hid the body and the most excruciating way which in an officers mind its deliberate

The second is intentionally which is an example of a fake friend they know what they're doing, they planed it from the get go, they know when, how, where to hid the body and kill that person what's so a great demand is that you want to know what is going on in that person's mind why did it have to happen to them but everyone has a motive either that person

they killed did something to them or they were jealous of their life style. Haters are an example of people who just have no sense of intellect and want to jeopardize the person's perseverance. In a simpler way they got nothing else to do with their lives but diss on people and endanger their reputation and career, not only them but even you "closest friends" can destroy your career. You can love someone and care for them but don't trust them unless they have shown true trustworthy actions. If someone enforces you to trust them don't trust them at your own time when you're ready not when they feel you're ready.

My whole 15 years of living I've trusted no one but 2020 really showed me true people I can trust but not fully trust them so rounding up the friends I have the family members I trust 5 people my principal social science teacher my big brother (to be specific Sibusiso) my closest friend(Lucian) and myself.

The only reason I've pulled myself to trust those 4 because they have shown me something that not many people have shown me and for someone with social anxiety disorder that's pretty good

If want to know if there worth your trust, ask yourself these questions;

1. When was the last time this person made you happy or did something for you?

2. When was the last time they hurt you? Was it a mistake or deliberate?

3. Have they ever told someone what you had told them secretly? And be sure of it? and were the intention good or bad?

4. Have they ever lied to you? How many times have they lied?

5. Have they ever forced you into something you're not comfortable with?

Now that you have answered yourself and seen who is really trustworthy write down who you trust

Now that you know, do you think you will trust anyone else? And when your writing down who you trust don't write with the mind-set that my best friend has to be there, no write the names that correspond with the questions but just because those are the people you trust doesn't mean you should cut off the others, no carry on caring for them and loving them cause even though

you don't trust them you could use some friends or family member to chill with or be with