Just Perfectly Messy

well... shit

I don't know what to do.

What is there for me to do?

If I were to choose Harry, what does that say about Connor or Ashton? Or if I were to choose one of the other two, what would happen to the other two??

The mere thought of losing Harry, Connor or Ashton makes me sick. Each of them have become so important to me, and if I lose any of them because of my decision... well.. I just don't know what I would do.

"Do you want to stop and get some energy drinks before we head to the fair?" Michael asks Mina and I. Mina nods her head and I agree as well.

"Red Bull or Monsters?" Michael asks as he parks the car outside if a 7/11.

"Monsters," Mina and I say at the same time. Mina and I begin to laugh, and Michael shakes his head in disappointment.

"I don't even know who you two are," he says before he heads into the store and returns immediately after.

"Hereee." Michael sing songs as he hands Mina and I our drinks and we head on our way to the fair. My excitement to see Connor was real.

ConnorBall: Just got here. Where are you? :)

I see that we're about 5 to 7 minutes away from the fair grounds and I let Connor know that the traffic isn't too great.

ConnorBall: Okay! Can't wait to see you! :)

My stomach flutters and I can't wipe the smile from my face.

Me: Me neither! I've missed you! :/

I hate sounding needy but I haven't seen Connor in less than a week, and I've already missed his touch.

By the time we're at the fair, it's already pretty packed. We pay for the entrance fee, and head to the food stands. Connor and I had planned to meet by the Dions stand.

Michael and Mina are on their phones, and I notice I'm on mine as well. Connor is nowhere to be found and I begin to wonder if there's more than one Dions pizza stand here at the fair.

"Ahhh, there he is!" Michael booms and I get an excited feeling in the pit of my stomach to see Connor.

I wonder how Michael knew I was meeting Connor here. I never mentioned meeting Connor here to Mina and Michael..

When my eyes follow where Michaels looking, I see Ashton walking towards us with his usual amazing smile. My stomach flips out of excitement, but churns out of nervousness as well. Did Michael invite Ashton to hang out with us?

"I hope you guys don't mind, but I thought it would be okay if I invited Ashton to hang out with us." Michael announces and Mina smiles at Ashton. My question is answered.

"Seems like a good idea to me!" Mina says after giving Ashton a fist bump.

Ashton continues to look at me the entire time Michael speaks, and finally walks up to me and gives me a long and comforting hug. He smells like men's shampoo and pizza. Truly a man's man. But I loved his scent.

"You... uh... look really nice." Ashton whispers to me, and my stomach flips. Oh my life.

"Thank you, you look pretty dashing yourself." Ashton's smile is wide and it reaches his eyes. Right after the words leave my lips I can see someone walking up to me in my peripheral. Oh shit.. Connor.

When I turn my head I expect to see Connor but am shocked to see Louis and Gemma holding hands, and Harry walking beside them awkwardly.

Oh, my, God.