Just Perfectly Messy

in the beginning...

Have you ever done something so drastic that it was potentially life changing? Yeah, it's okay, so have I. But when I say it was life changing, I mean it was literally... life changing.

It was also embarrassing. An embarrassing life changing event that led me to fall in love, get broken hearts, go through the motions, learn about life, make amazing friends, and then fall in love all over again with the man of my dreams. I could never explain the feelings I felt for him because no one can explain perfection...

He was like my angel in the darkness. He helped me to come out of my shell and share my entirety with him. I can't pinpoint the feeling of being completely different because I had always been myself with him... but he changed me as well. He crafted me into this person who wasn't ashamed to look at her reflection in the mirror anymore... this girl who always found flaws in herself, and couldn't love herself the way she deserved, but learned to love herself anyway. He helped me to fall in love with myself before I could fall in love with him, and that is why I love him the most.

I went through trial and error to get him, and even so, I almost lost him... but in the end I suppose destiny wanted us to be together... I suppose we were always meant to be together.

I guess I'm not here to tell you stories of how he won my heart over and over, or how he caught me every time I fell -- because there's plenty of those stories to go around. No, I'm here to tell our legacy, and how three letters, three very different letters labeled to three very different men, changed my life forever.

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-Present Day

I walk into Rebel Donut and notice the donut shop wasn't crazy busy like it normally was. I was here almost every day out of the week, and today they were just so slow.

I walked up straight to the counter and ordered my regular french vanilla coffee and Boston cream filled donut. One of the newer employees took my order and told me my order would be up soon. While waiting for my food and coffee, I scrolled through my tumblr feed paying no mind to the individuals around me. Mina had texted me asking if I could pick up some taco bell for her and Michael on my way home, and being the greatest friend that I am, I responded with: "Michael has legs. Michael can get you two food." I suppose Michael had taken Mina's phone in the meantime because his response was both salty, and very, very sassy.

Me: Calm yourself, Michael. I don't want you hurting yourself there big guy. I'll bring you two some lunch, now give your girlfriend her phone back, you idiot.

"Alessandra?" I jerk my head up at the mention of my name and meet beautiful green eyes and a brilliant white smile.

"Harry?" I mimic his questioning tone. He kind of rubs his neck and gives me a shy smile.

Harry Edward Styles, shy? Wow, I thought I'd never see the day.

"How are you?" He asks in a low, sort of sultry tone. Sultry? Man, I don't know. He's always sounded sultry to me, even when we were freshmen in high school and he hadn't quite hit puberty. His voice is kind of... it's kind of like a voice that you want to just sit back and listen to. He has one of those kinds of voices...

Anyways.....

I just give a small smile, "I'm doing good. How are you?" I watch as he takes off his hat and runs his hand through his hair. Placing his hat back on, I try and advert my gaze somewhere else... I think he caught me staring.

I guess you could say I sort of kind of have a thing for him, okay? He was the popular hot guy in high school, and I was extremely attracted. We were never friends... like ever... I kind of just admired from afar. But when we did talk, (which was rare, and only ever happened when we were assigned to be partners for a class project), he was a real sweet guy. Really goofy, loud, and different. He wasn't quite like most popular d-bags who were totally idiots and the lot. He was actually really nice, and friendly, and I swore back in high school that he would have my babies. No matter what I had to do.