Just Perfectly Messy

bowling dates w insecurities

Alessandra's outfit on the sidddde. Basically her outfit for her date with Ashton♡

-Ashton's pov

"Are you just going to sit there and continue writing? Or are you going to get out of your room and start getting ready?"

I place my pen down and turn my desk chair around to face Dyson.

"I'm not going," I blankly respond, turning back around and getting back to writing.

"What? What do you mean you're not going?"

"Must you take English class again? I clearly stated that I'm not going. I'm not leaving this room, nor am I going anywhere with anyone until I have class tomorrow."

"Ash, you can't keep doing this to yourself,"

"Doing what?" I question.

"This!" Dyson motions toward me and my room. "Locking yourself in your room. Never coming out unless you have class, or need to eat. You can't keep placing yourself on the lowest level of everything. You need this, you need to get out, man."

"Why?! You know I'm just going to fuck this up. It'd just be better if I stay here and face her tomorrow. Or better yet, never talk to her again!"

"No, Ashton! Stop this! You're too good for this shit. You deserve better, you deserve to have this date with Alessandra. You deserve to get out, have fun, and have a good date with a girl you like."

I turn back around and cover my face with my hands. "What if I fuck it up, Dyson?"

"You won't. I know you got this in you, man. You will conquer this, and you'll get a second date with this girl, and you'll be happy you went out!"

I look up at Dyson who has clothes in hand and a towel as well.

"Go, Ash. Please, for you."

But I don't want to.

Yes you do, Ash.

But I'll just fuck up everything like I always do!

I promise, this time everything will go smoothly.

But...

Go.

But I...

Now.

Okay, fine. But if this ends in failure.. I'm going back in my hole.

No, you won't. Because everything will go by great, and she'll help you to forget that hole.

Or she'll place me back inside of it.

That's not the case. Not this time.

Fine... I'll go...

Thank you.

"Ashton?" I look up at Dyson and nod my head.

"Wish me luck,"

"That's my boy!!" Dyson pats my back.

You've got this, Ash.

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"I mean if bowling is too cheesy we can always do something else?"

"What? I have been looking forward to bowling since you brought it up!" Alessandra and I wait for the bowling attendant to show up. "Yknow, I used to be in a bowling league. I can so kick your ass,"