Just Perfectly Messy

well.. what had happened was...

Harry sends me a small wave, and I send him one back with a smile attached. I get butterflies just at the sight of him, but the feeling I feel in my chest when I feel Ashton watching me makes the butterflies fly away.

"Hey girl!" Gemma immediately says to me when they've reached me and my friends. She gives me a tight hug, and I've realized that I really like her. She looks over towards Mina, Michael and Ashton and introduces herself with a genuine smile. Louis hugs me next and let's me know that he misses me by Rebel Donut. I've been spending a lot of time with Harry at Rebel Donut and I've become very accustomed to Louis being there as well. He's reminds me a lot of Mina in a way, and I adore him for that.

Michael calls Ashton for whatever reason and Ashton tells me he'll be right back.

Did Michael think inviting Ashton would be a double date? Because if he did, he planned this all at the wrong time.

Harry walks up to me after Ashton leaves and leans in to kiss my cheek. My stomach.. it's flipping in every which way, and I feel goosebumps rise on my skin.

"You look really beautiful," Harry tells me and gives me a dimpled smile. I lean in for a hug and allow him to hold me for just a moment longer than usual. When I look over to Michael, he's talking with Ashton and I'm curious to know what they're both talking about.

When I look back up to Harry he's already looking at me and I feel my cheeks warm just a bit.

"I didn't know you were coming to the fair today. If I would have known, I would have invited you to come with me and those two love birds." Harry points towards Louis and Gemma and I smile at the way Louis holds Gemma's waist as they talk to Mina. It took a lot of time and persuading on my end, but Harry has grown fond of his best friend dating his sister. Not completely, but seeing them together doesn't make him want to puke anymore, and I think that's effort.

"We could have made it a double date," Harry whispers closely to my ear. It sends shivers up my body, and I try to stay as cool, calm and collected as I can.

Ashton begins walking back towards us and I feel uneasy. What have I gotten myself into?

"Hey," Ashton says when he reaches me and Harry. Harry gives Ashton a smile and reaches out to give him a handshake. I'm relieved that Harry isn't holding the small of my back like he was doing only moments ago, and I'm happy Ashton isn't trying to hold my hand like he's become accustomed to doing.

"I'm Harry, nice to meet you."

"I'm Ashton, it's really nice to meet you, too!" Ashton's smile is genuine and I can tell that both he and Harry have no idea about each other, or how I know and am involved with each of them. God, if they only knew, they might not be so friendly with one another... or worse... with me.

When I look at Mina she's smiling and laughing until I see her eyes go wide and she looks at me. I don't know what's driving her insane, but when I look towards what she was looking at I see Connor approaching us with a big smile.

Holy shit. What is going on? What have I gotten myself into?

When I look at Connor, he eyes Harry, and when I look at Harry something about his eyes has changed.

Once Connor is in our circle, I realize that all three of them, all, three, boys, are all together... with me...

None of them know about each other, and none of them knows I've been kind of seeing the other two.

What is wrong with me? What type of person am I to be seeing three different guys? And to think that I could hide that fact and believe they'd never run into each other? I mean, Connor and Harry ran into each other that One day at the coffee shop, when did I begin to believe that this wouldn't happen again.. and with all three of them at once, too.

I feel like such a cheap bitch.

But you weren't technically with any of them. My subconscious reminds me. You were only going out with all of them, but you weren't offical with any of them. People can see many different people at one time, Alessandra. Just as long as there's no label among them.

Bless you, subconscious. Bless you.

"Hey," Connor says once he's in the circle of doom. Ashton's the first person to introduce himself, and Harry hesitates. What's his deal?

"I didn't realize it was going to be a group of people.." Connor questions when he notices Louis and Gemma are with Mina and Michael.

"Neither did I," I hear Ashton say under his breath.

"Oh, you were meeting him here?" Harry says defeated.

I look at him and he's looking at Connor.

"Yeah, I had invited him." I answer.

"But Michael told me it was just going to be us four?" Ashton speaks up next.

I feel flustered.

"What? Like a double date?" Connor asks with amusement In his tone.

Ashton nods his head.

Connor looks at me. "No, I think you have that wrong. Ali invited me here.. she said it was a double date for us." He gestures to me and himself.

Harry's eyes are now on me. "You're seeing Connor?" The hurt in Harry's voice throws me all off.

"No, she's seeing me." Ashton points out and I'd wish I would have just stayed home.

"No," Harry says sadly. "She's seeing me."

"Ali, what are they talking about?" Connor looks at me. "Tell them we're together." My eyes go wide at the word "together" and I feel dizzy.

They all thought... oh my gosh.

Michael walks up and stands right beside me. I can tell he's overheard our conversation by the pity In his eyes. "I think you guys need to hear her out before things get crazier. Louis, Gemma, Mina and I are going to get some drinks. We'll be near the games if you decide to rejoin us." Michael kisses the top of my head and walks away, interlocking his fingers with Mina and leaving me be on my own.

All three boys look at me expectantly, and a pit in my stomach makes me believe in the worst.