"Wait, Johnson?" Jady nods smirking.
"And how do you know Nash is going to be at this party?"
"It's more of a bonfire for the new school year, and it just so happen you both are going to the same one."
"What if he starts a fight?" I ask worriedly.
"Why would he do that?"
"Because I'm going to be with Johnson! I don't want to hurt him." I begin pacing.
"He hurt you so it doesn't matter. Show him that this is a new you. And hurry up before were late." She grabs my wrist dragging me out the room.
"There's not going to be any alcohol right?" I stop her. She turns around groaning.
"What do you think?" I laugh shrugging my shoulders. At the bottom of the stairs was Johnson with a green graphic t-shirt, khaki pants, and a SnapBack backwards on his head.
"Maybe I should cover up" I begin to stall.
"It's almost 90 degrees outside. You'll get over heated." Laura answers for her, at the front door already. I groan refusing to go out.
"Cmon Leah. We'll have fun" Johnson takes my hands away from Jady and holds them.
"I don't know..." I say unsure.
"Than do it for the new school"
"Whatever, let's go" I give in. Jady grins jumping up and down hugging Sammy. Behind her I can hear Laura and Jack high-fiveing.
"That's my grape" Johnson laughs draping his arm over my shoulders. I laugh confused.
"Grape?"
"Your new hair? It's green like a grape" I hold in a laugh for a few second but end up laughing loudly.
"You're terrible" I lean my head on his shoulder.
"Oh trust me i know" He winks.
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"You ready?" Johnson whispers in my ear, goosebumps appearing on my skin.
"I don't know about this. What if he see me?"
"You'll be with me."He says in reassurance.
"I know how Nash is. He gets so easily Jealous. He might want to start a fight" I look at him afraid.
The bonfire was surrounded by a bunch of high school students. There was a bunch of boys with varsity jackets near the side and some cheerleaders next to them.
"Than he stars a fight. Well tell him the truth" He squeezes my hand calming me.
I look around seeing if I see anyone familiar. There's just one person near what I guess is the lacrosse team. Nash. I turn my head hastily back to Johnson hopping Nash doesn't see me.
"I see him" I go on my toes telling Johnson in his ear.
"He's looking" He replies.
"I can't do this" The emotions come running back to me and I pull away from Johnson walking away. I hear him calling my name but I put my hand up telling him to stop.
I just keep walking until I find an isolated place. I sit on the nearest log, sighing.
"Leah?" That damn voice. The voice that can make me fall again. The one that gives me shivers endlessly.
"Please go away" I beg. I don't want to do this right now.
"It's good to see you." He ignores my plead.
"Yeah, truthfully, it really is" I agree, a chuckle escaping.
"New hair?" He sits next to me. I lift my head and see those bright blue eyes that I haven't seen in so long.
"I wanted to try something different"
"I kinda miss your silver hair from when we first met" He laughs, as do I.
"Yeah but this hair makes me much cooler than you now." I say bringing up a distant but loving memory.
"Nope. No. Nahh. You see my longer hair than I have now beats your green hair any day!" He grabs a rock and throws it.
"That's hard to believe. You even said it yourself I'm the cooler one" I look into his eyes.
"Opinions change. And look at my boots. So much swag yo" He starts talking ghetto near the end. I giggle at his hand motions while speaking.
"Nash, get it through your mind That I'm cooler! If I were you I wouldn't believe those lies you're telling yourself." I push his shoulder jokingly. How am I so calm with him?
"I tell myself that I still love you. I know for a fact that's not a lie" Damn, make this fun enjoyable moment awkward af.
"Nash-" I begin but as he usually does, he cuts me off.
"Leah, don't start please. I don't want us to be over. I know what I did was absolutely stupid but I still love you. My body and heart aches that I can't hold you and call you mine. I miss our cuddles. Our kisses. I miss you. You're my one and only" Tears comes to my eyes knowing that I feel the same but I can't. I'm doing so well moving on. He brings his hands up cupping my cheek making me look him in the eyes.
"Do you feel the same?" His voice just above a whisper. I nod, a tear escaping my eyes as he wipes it away with his thumb. He smiles slightly leaning down.
"I can't" I pull away from his embrace.
"Don't do this" He begs, reaching out for me.
"No, you don't do this Nash! I'm finally moving on and you come back thinking it'll all be okay. News flash Nash! It'll never be okay. How do I know you won't cheat on me again! I miss you. I really do but I can't put myself through the pain of never knowing if you decide to go back to her! We're over Nash. Get that through your head!" I yell at him. He stands there silent, processing everything through his mind.
I shake my head, tears still falling out, and continue walking back to the bonfire.
"I'm not giving up on us." I hear him distantly as I walk closer to the bonfire.
Secretly, I don't want him to.
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"Hey where were you?" Johnson asks as I reach closer to him.
"I just needed some fresh air away from the smoke" I honestly say, well sorta.
"Have you been crying?" He notices and puts his hand in my cheeks noticing that they're wet.
"Smoke got into my eyes. I guess it made me cry" I laugh.
"Well let's enjoy tonight, yeah?" He smiles, making me grin. Draping his arm on my shoulder, I lean my head on his.
"I just want to forget everything right now" I say seeing a cooler of beer near us. I reach over grabbing one, motioning another to Johnson if he wanted but he shook his head. I opened one for myself and downed it quickly before grabbing another.
"Are you sure you're okay Leah?" Johnson asks once I open the second can.
"Just fucking dandy"
