"Jady,Laura, I need you guys right now" I sob into the phone call with them. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why the hell couldn't I just tell Nash the truth? Why did I have to be such a scardy cat and not tell him. I'm the reason he broke up with me and I can't believe I let it happen without of a fight of any kind.
"Leah, what happened?" Jady questions.
"It's over. He broke up with me" my voice sounding shakey through the phone. There were tears streaming down me face. I wipe the away quickly before they reach the bottom half of my face.
"What? what happened?" Laura says joining into the conversation.
"Just please come to my hotel room " I beg. They mutter quick yes's before hanging up. I clutched onto my knees as I sat on the floor shaking.
After two or so minutes, there were knocks at the door. I got up quickly, losing my balance on the way and opening it letting Jady and Laura come in. And to my surprise before I had the chance to shut the door, Cameron somehow slipped inside.
"What are you doing here Cam?" I say not darning to look him in the eye out of pure embarrassment after what happened with Nash.
"I saw Nash really angry, and he locked me out of our room so I came here to see what's up?"
"There's a lot up but I'm definitely not up there." I try and make my voice not sound like I was crying hysterically a few minutes ago. Even though I was, but he doesn't need to know that.
"You were crying weren't you?"
"Look it doesn't matter. Go and see if Nash is alright because I'm not and he might be ecstatic that he doesn't have a messed up girlfriend anymore. You should go join his celebrating party"
"He looked pissed, not happy"
"Cam I'm sorry but I want to talk to jady and Laura right now. If you don't mind, okay?"
"That's cool. But text me later, so I know how you're going" he says. I nod my head and he walks away back to his room as I shut the door and lock, turning around to face the girls.
"Leah. What the hell happened? You and Nash were so happy together" Laura says from the bed. I shake my head not knowing what to say.
"I did something stupid and it made us break up" Tears finding there way out of my eyes. Again.
"What did you do Leah?"
"I kept a secret from him that is absolutely terrible and I couldn't tell him the truth , and he wasn't happy with my secrecy and broke up with me"
"What secret was it?" Jady now says.
"Please don't hate me" I beg as I look at them.
"That's not possible. We can never hate you." Laura says.
"Okay um, well where do I start. After my season ended I didn't work out as much and I hated the way my body look. Despised it. A few days ago I went to CVS and bought some diet pills that take away my appetite-" I got cut off by Jady.
"Where is this heading?"
"Just let me finish please" she nods and looks down at her lap playing with her fingers.
"I started taking the pills all the time a few every couple hours and it didn't make me hungry. And I started taking more after the Magcon where that fan said some insulting things to me. A few days back Nash found them in my bag and questioned me about them and I couldn't bring myself to telling him the truth so I told him to leave me alone. Which he did and we haven't had a proper conversation together for three days until today. I was in Cameron's bathroom and he saw me so I ran to my room and he followed me in. Skipping to the end he said he doesn't want to date a girl who can't tell him the truth or the secrets so he broke up with me" I say letting it all out. I look up at there faces and as expected there was a mixture of shock and confusion.
"He broke up with you while your starving yourself?! All he's doing is making the situation worse by not helping you!" Laura yelled.
"Laura you don't get it. I never told him the truth! He never knew so he couldn't help" I explain myself.
"But why didn't you tell him?" jady asks calmly.
"I was embarrassed that if he knew, he wouldn't love me anymore"
"Bullshit. He's head over heels for you. If anything he would've helped you and love you even more" Laura explains.
"Should I tell him now?" I ask with excitement.
"It might be a little late but better late than never." Jady says helping me up to my feet and pushing me towards the door.
"Wait, how do I look?"
"You look perfect now go"
"I know your just saying that but okay" she pushed me out of my own room and I shuffle my feet slowly to the door next door and knock three times. Closing my eyes, I hear feet shuffling on the other side. The door opens revealing Nash with messed up hair and puffy cheeks.
"What do you want?" he says sternly. Honestly that kind've scared me.
"I want to tell you the truth"
"Okay." he moves out of the way and let's me in the room before shutting the door.
"They're diet pills"
"I know what they are Leah. I want to know why you need them?"
"When I took them, I stopped eating. I'm not proud of what I did but I did it and I can't take it back"
"So that's it? You just wanted to lose some pounds? Really? You should've came here with a better explanation than that because that means nothing to me. Just like you. Just leave Leah. I don't want to be around a person who starves themselves and takes pill because they aren't happy." he says angrily.
"Sorry" It was all I could say. He didn't bother saying anything back and I took that as my cue to leave. Which I did, but I didn't go back to my room.
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