Lust into Love

The On-Call Room

Addison's POV

When Meredith and I part ways at the front door of the hospital, Bailey strides up to me.

"What the hell are you doing making my resident late?" Miranda snaps at me.

"I'm so sorry, I was having car troubles this morning." I respond.

"What are you doing with Grey anyways? I thought you were at each other's throats." Bailey questions. I mean we have been at each other's throats but I just smirk to myself and say nothing about it.

"We've been carpooling." I say calmly. "It's better on the environment and she doesn't live too far from me." Bailey raises her eyebrows at me and I can tell she's full of curiosity.

"What? We're friends!" I defend myself to her. Bailey just smirked at me and walked away. My thoughts quickly roam to my hickeys and I wonder if they're visible.

I graze my fingers across my neck and shudder, thinking about Meredith. I start longing for her touch and wonder if she's feeling the same way. I start making my way towards the bathroom when Derek starts making a bee-line towards me.

"What do you think you're doing with Meredith?" Derek asked me flustered. His cheeks are red and he looks so pissed off.

"Derek, you have no right to talk about her to me." I deadpan.

"Excuse me?" He asks shocked. "She was my girlfriend one minute, and the next, I see her in bed with you."
"Maybe I can satisfy her in all the ways you never could. You never cared about her, you just wanted someone to control!" I shout at him.

Derek grabs me by the wrist hard and starts leading me towards an on call room.

"Let go Derek, you're hurting me." I cry out. He lets go of my wrist and I can see a bruise starting to form. My eyes start to fill with tears but I will not break down in front of him.

I follow him into the on-call room and he slams the door, making me jump.

"Addison, please just help me understand this." Derek says quietly.

"It was never meant to be this way. She's the ex-mistress and I'm the ex-wife. We were supposed to hate each other, not fall in love."

Derek looks at me and I can see his expression soften a little.

"You fell in love with her?" Derek asks softly.

"Yes I did, and Derek I've never never felt this way about someone." I respond. Something in his facial expression changes and I've seen this look before. He's got the same look on his face as he did that night. The night he walked in on me and his best friend in bed.

"You're not even gay Addison. How could you be in love with her?" Derek questions.

"I've known since before we met. I just never told you. Times where different then. It wasn't openly accepted." Me saying this only seems to piss Derek off more and he jumps off of the on-call bed quickly.

"You're lying. We were married for 11 years. You couldn't have kept a secret like that from me for so long." He starts inching his way towards me, slowly, with a crooked grin on his face.

I can feel my heartbeat grow faster and faster as the anxiety builds up inside of me. Derek's never been physical with me before today but he's not afraid of getting in my face when things get heated.

Derek doesn't stop coming towards me until he's just inches away from my face. I can feel his hot breath landing on my skin, and every ounce of my being just wants to run.