Blood means nothing

one more day

Raven slurped her ice tea and took another bite of her cheesey pizza. She could hear the hustle and bustle of the busy New York outside as Lexa coloured away at a paper hat instead of eating.

"Raven, mi amor, tu bien?" (my love, you okay?)

"Oh si si, just tired."

"Are we all tired tonight my girls?"

"Yeh a bit." Lexa yawned.

"Mhm are we a bit down because papa is at home."

"Yeh." Lexa said sadly as she continued colouring her paper hat.

"Well let's do some shopping tomorrow and maybe we'll go home the day after to see papa, como suena eso?" (how does that sound)

"Yay papa!!"

"Yeh I guess."

Tae turned off the car staring at Raven's house. Now she couldn't bring herself to knock. What if she ignored her, she did say to never speak to her again. Or what if Jack was there and saw Tae. That is worse. But she was going to kill herself. So what does it matter.

She got out the car out in the cold, icey breeze blowing in her face. As she approached the front door she gulped trying to get rid of that rock feeling in her stomach. She rang the ring doorbell and waited what felt like the longest wait in her life.

The door opened but not to Raven standing there, but a man that looked like her, it was Robert.

"Oh hi is uh, uh Raven in?"

"Who is it darling?" A voice called that came closer. Then a women appeared next to him. She was about 4"11, and had long blonde hair. Her eyes were piercing blue and she looked mid twenties, max.

"I'm, I'm sorry I think this is the wrong house." Tae blurted out, fully knowing what's going on.

"No Raven is not in, she's in New York." Robert said bluntly at her.

"Do you know when she's back?"

"Sorry sweetie no, au reviour." She then gave her a little wave and forced the door shut.

What the fuck had she just walked into. Robert was cheating on Ana and his mistress was in their house. What the actual fuck. But it wasn't her place to even tell Raven any off this. This wrecks her whole family.

Raven sat hand on her chin in the busy JFK airport, watching people pass by. Everyone had a story here that was different. So strange. Her thoughts were cut off by a chime on her phone.

"Hey baby." The first text message read. "Can't wait to see you when ur back."

Great Jack. Raven had kind of forgotten he existed. A butterfly sensation went through her tummy but in a bad way. Jack was sweet but Raven wasn't sure he was what she wanted. But he won't do any harm so it's ok.

"Okay so I've got you some Taco Bell Raven and Lexa here's your Mcdonald's." Ana handed the bags over.

"Thanks mom."

"Gracias momma." Lexa then dug into her happy meal.

"Ok well we are hopefully boarding soon so eat up." She then sat next to Raven and stroked her hair.
"Are we excited to see Papa?"

"Yes I miss him!!" Lexa said, mouth full of chips.

"Si." Raven looked at her mom who had a concerned expression.

"Mija, is something going on?"

"No everything's fine."

"Really? You've been distracted this whole trip and I don't think it's about your father."

"Just jet lag."

"Mija, I've seen you jet lagged and it doesn't look like this on you. Something is on your mind. Or someone?"
Raven felt a rock in her throat, her mom was right she did have someone on her mind.
"Is it Jack, you're boyfriend, I know it's hard not seeing eachother every day."

"Yeh, uh I just like him a lot."
And as the words came out her mouth she knew they were a lie. She knew what she wanted to say was 'I just like her a lot'.

Tae sunk back in the car not knowing what to do with herself. She was supposed to see Raven and then end it. But she couldn't. Not without the guarantee that this letter was going to get to its owner.

One more day. She's sure Raven will be back soon. School started in 4 days so obviously she would be back soon. I'll give it one more try and if not i'll post it and end it, Tae thought to herself.

In the meantime she texted Hannah because there was no way she was staying at home tonight.

The flight back was good, Raven just slept the whole time to avoid thinking about Tae. Except she wanted too? But she knew she couldn't because being with Tae was the impossible.

Rain condensed over the window as she stared out blankly up in her room, she heard a knock on her door coming from Lexa.

"You left your phone downstairs and you just got a text." She said handing the phone to her and leaving.

"Uh thanks." She then looked at her phone to see the one person she just didn't want to hear from. Jack. Again. But it was an image. The image. Yet she still clicked it. There it was. The dreaded dick pick with the next message following.

"Send your 🍒 or 🍑. I don't mind which i'm sure they are both sexy."

That's it Raven had had it. She felt the vomit at the back of her throat. The chur of her stomach. The tears that flooded her eyes. She ran to her bathroom and threw up whatever she had eaten on the plane into the toilet.

Tears streamed down her eyes blinding her vision as she silently sobbed. Why why why she thought. Her head throbbed from the overwhelming ness off everything.

Off Jack, off her dad and most off all Tae. All she could fucking think about was Taelyn Boneit. Why.