Collide / [Park Jay]

07

I always want things to be okay between my parents. Iyon nga lang, wala naman akong magawa doon. I just couldn't do anything when I know nothing about where it went wrong. It's been a long time since they parted ways but I don't understand the tension up to now. If I'll be honest, sometimes, I feel like they're not really concern about my well-being. It's like they're just doing things for me to prove each other who is the better one when it comes to parenting.

I sighed at the back of my head. Why am I letting these unnecessary thoughts fill me again?

I spent the rest of the night keeping myself busy fixing stuff in my apartment. Hindi ko na rin namalayan kung anong oras na ba ako nakatulog. I tend to keep myself active to avoid my episodes of overthinking and thankfully, it helps a lot.

The next day, I was informed late about the school's club day. Sinabi ni Sunhee sa akin na hindi daw required na mag-uniform ngayon dahil wala namang klase. Last week, they were given a chance to choose their desired clubs or organizations. Ngayon naman ay ang general meeting with the club leaders and members. I still have no idea where to join since I don't have particular interests or hobbies.

Pagbaba ko sa building ay naisipan kong dumaan muna sa convenience store dahil hindi pa ako kumakain. Na-set ko na naman 'yong mga gamit sa kitchen pero wala lang akong time para magluto. Also, my cooking skills are too basic, so..

"Bago ka ba dito?" The store manager suddenly asked me.

"Ah.. opo.." I answered politely. There was an awkward silence after that so I just decided to excuse myself.

Dumiretso ako sa table na madalas kong upuan, iyon nga lang, occupied na iyon. And it's not just occupied by anyone. Surprisingly, it's someone I know and I'm familiar with. Well, it's him.. again. And he's already looking at me before I could even notice him. Natigilan ako saglit dahil hindi ko alam kung anong reaksyon ang gagawin ko. As much as I want to greet him or smile at him, I just don't want to be ignored again like what happened yesterday. Isa pa, hindi ko pa siya nakikilala ng pormal. And I don't even know his name.

I just slightly bowed my head before finding myself a seat and eat my unhealthy breakfast.

Nauna siyang umalis ng store kaysa sa akin dahil nauna rin naman siyang dumating. Sinundan ko lang siya ng tingin hanggang sa hindi ko na siya natanaw. He carries a very cold aura for whatever reason. Or siguro, hindi pa lang niya talaga ako kilala. I guess I'll just properly introduce myself next time.. of course, if there's a chance. Hindi lang sa kanya kundi sa buong klase.