A way to think of me// book 1

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KYIA POV

"I think I know who told the news people that you were pregnant" Ashton gulped.

"Tell Me, I need to know" I start to sob.

"Amber did" he sighed.

"Amber? Why, how-" I was cut off.

"I don't know? But she told the news reporters" Ashton sighs.

"H-how do you know?" I stuttered. Wet tears stroke down my cheeks.

"Akiva told me" He simply replies.

"Not Kyia don't cry" Ashton says, pulling my body into a hug.

"How would she know?" I ask, wiping away the tears.

"Look, who else would? Calum I swear is like the third person in this relationship, and Michael, he wouldn't do that. The boys don't even know except for Luke" Ashton sighs.

"Good point. But this bump is growing and it is starting to be visible" I say. Im so nervous for this baby.

What's everyone going to think when we go back to school?

What is everyone going to do?

These questions were running through my head like a broken record.

"I know the bump is growing, and I'm here for you. No one is going to pick on you"

"Yes they are. Im going to be known as a slut and I just can't do it. Im going to be the girl who has the baby and the father is going to leave me" I said, with tears breaking again.

"I will never leave you" Ashton mumbles, nuzzling his face in the crook of my neck.

"Ashton. we are in high school. This relationship won't last. Im scared that you will leave me before I have the baby. Im scared that the baby won't love me because I was in high school when I had him or her. But most of all, I'm scared that the baby won't make it". I sobbed, with tears rolling down my cheeks again.

"Please don't cry" and he hugs me tighter. I looked up to him with stained tears on my cheeks. He grabbed my face and wiped the tears away with his thumbs.

"I will never leave you" he whispered, holding me tight.

"And even if I did, I still would like you so much and the boys will always like you no matter what. Even if I do leave you I will always be here for the baby, take him to stay with me for a weekend, or buy him something that you don't have the money to buy. I would do anything for my child, anything" I lean in and kiss his lips.

Before anything happened, the door swings open.

"Can we leave you two alone and you guys not lift the heat in this room?" Michael said, crossing his arms like a little kid. I rolled my eyes and Ashton stood up and slapped him up the head. I giggled and Michael gave me a stare. He could be scary sometimes. He did it for about ten seconds and started laughing at me.

Everyone else got in the van and we drove off.

"Next Ashton and Kyia are in the front, so they don't have an excuse to start kissing again" Calum said, high-fiving Michael.

I just rolled my eyes while everyone laughed, including Ashton. I slapped him up beside his head and he gave me a look, but kissed my lips. I smiled in the kiss. It was only a peck but our pecks are everything. We stopped again so we could swap. Me and Ashton were in the front.

I was staring at my phone for two hours on facebook with all the updates people have said about me.

'Its good to know that a kid from school is pregnant, she is such a immature bitch'

'#ashtonirwin is having a baby with a slut? Can I kill myself now please?'

'I wonder what the baby's name is? Im thinking 'slutty mum Irwin'? What do you guys think?'. I looked at the likes and comments on that post. 143 likes, 300 comments. Most of the comments were,'such a great name' or 'thats a perfect name for the baby'.

A tear dropped from my eye and Ashton saw. He wrapped his arm around my waist. I smiled, even though he couldn't see me.

"I love you" I whispered. It went silent for a little bit. Oh shit. He doesn't love me back.

"I love you, so much" He said. I turned my head to look at him and kissed his cheek.

"Never leave me" I whisper.

"Never" he said, pulling me a little bit closer.

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These really suck.....

And watt pads gay now, it keeps deleting the parts so I have to remember them..... GAYYYY.

Anyways who's excited for 5sos doing their world tour AGAIN!!!!

So they come to Australia first and I believe that is annoying... Don't we man anything to you buttholes?!?!

-Ella 😖