My Fairy Tale

Chapter 12

After five minutes Kyle took me upstairs into my room. “I’ll come check on you in ten minutes okay.” He softly spoke. I just nodded. I went to my closet and decided to get out of these clothes. I put on my star bucks singlet and some blue trackies. The whether dropped and it was quite cold now. I sat on bed looking around at my room. I stopped on my collage of friends. Skye made it for me for my birthday. There were so many pictures of us goofing around. There were so many photos of Logan and I, then photos of us three. Logan, I haven’t spoken to him for months. I miss him so much. I want my best friend back. I slowly strolled along my purple carpet until I stopped at a picture. It was from a photo booth the night Stefan took me to the carnival. There were two photos of us pulling silly faces, one smiling and the other him kissing my cheek. A tear rolled down my face before hitting the photo. I ripped the photo into tiny little pieces before throwing it away. It doesn’t mean anything to me anymore. I just want my life to be normal again.

I walked out into the hall way stopping by Kyle’s room. It looked pretty cool. The walls were grey, but not an ugly grey, a pretty one. He had his bed in the middle of the back wall, with some pictures on his bed side table of his family. Old and new. He had a dresser with his hats and above that was the TV. His bathroom was next to his wardrobe. His bedroom was set out nice and neat. I liked it. He just finished making his bed. “Looks good.” I smiled. “Thanks.” He replied smiling back. “How are you feeling?” He questioned. “Good I guess.” I slowly replied. “What happened?” “I’d rather not talk about that right now, if that’s okay.” He just nodded before finishing up his room. I took that as my chance as to walk away. “Hey Shelbz.” He called once I was half way down the hall. “Yeah?” I called back. “Wanna go out?” He questioned. “Where too?” “Get some pizza; do something to get your mind off of things?” He continued to shout. “Yeah, give me some time to get changed.” I yelled before scurrying back to my room.

I quickly grabbed out my black leggings, an oversized white jumper with love hearts on it and a white singlet underneath. I grabbed some shoes, and a black beanie with the letter ‘S’ on it, before walking over to him. “The nanny will look after them for a little while more. Ready to go?” I just nodded before walking down stairs.

We got into the car before Kyle whispered something into the drivers ear. I couldn’t hear it, but the driver nodded before driving. “Where are we going?” I asked. “Somewhere to get your mind off things.” He discretely answered. I shrugged it off placing my head phones in my ears ignoring the outside world. One Direction’s song ‘Does He Know,’ came on, so I just replayed that song. But all I could think about was Stefan. I mean, I had a go at him, and I can’t say for no apparent reason, because there was a reason, but I was so mean. I know I need to fix things with Logan, and I know I need to fix them with Stefan, but I guess in some way, I want him to leave me alone. My grades have dropped, and my friends are drifting away from me that I’m not even noticing. I haven’t even seen Anika or spoken to her since she almost apologised to me, all because Stefan is the only recurring thing on my mind. And I don’t want him to be. Maybe this ‘staying away from each other’ thing won’t be as bad as I initially thought, I mean, I wanted it didn’t I?

After a while of driving Kyle tapped my shoulder. “We’re here.” He smiled, before George, our driver, opened the door. I climbed out taking in my surroundings. I should be smiling, because that’s exactly what Kyle is doing, but to be honest, I have no idea where we are. So I faked smiled at Kyle before walking towards the gate. Kyle paid this man for ‘two hours.’ Two hours of what? Eating food, because that’s what I thought we were doing. Kyle’s eye twinkled at the lights on this magical place flashed over him. “You have no idea where we are, do you?” He asked. I just shook my head no, because I have no idea where we are.

Soon I realised that we were at this big trampoline place, called ‘Dodge ball.’ It turns out that it’s a doge ball place, but instead of being in a school gym, it’s made out of trampolines. Kyle made me go on the opposite side to him, which sucks because I don’t know anyone here, and don’t make friends easy. So I just awkwardly stood there waiting for the man to say begin. And soon he did. Everyone started running towards the ball, including Kyle. I just still stood at the back, not wanting to join in. I just wanted to be at home. I didn’t want to be here. Turns out that a lot of people from school were here so Kyle didn’t even notice when I snuck out the door and sat on the grass looking at the stars.

Looking at the stars always helps. They are so beautiful. But it also makes me realise, Stefan is looking at these too. Everyone is. Everyone’s lives I ruined. Everyone who is mad at me, annoyed at me, or just unhappy because of me. Everything has gone downhill since my father and siblings passed away. I always had Rose by my side to help me with everything. If she was here, I know what she would say. “Shelby, get off your fat arse, go apologise to Logan, get your best friend back, before fixing things with Stefan. I know you like him more than you realise. I know you’re scared about your feelings for him. But that’s because you have never felt this way about anyone before. It’s okay to be scared.” “But Rose, those words I said, they had meaning to them, there had to be a reason I said them, no one just randomly thinks of those words.” I replied.
“You’re right, no one thinks of them. But why did you say them?”
“I don’t know. I guess I don’t want him in my life anymore.”
“Yes you do. You know you do.”
“No Rose, I don’t. I meant what I said. I meant it.”
“Whatever you say little sister.” And with that, my dead sister disappeared leaving me thinking if I’ve gone criminally insane. I meant what I said to Stefan, I don’t deserve him. I don't deserve anyone.