My Fairy Tale

Chapter 20

You’re sister is so sweet and gorgeous.” I told him. “She likes to think she is too.” He laughed. “Thank you for today. I know you didn’t do much, you just hugged me, but it helped. More then you’ll ever know.” I smiled at him as we stopped in front of the door. “I will be here for you, no matter what.” He smiled back. “Do you want to come in?” I questioned, wondering it was a good idea or not. He smiled “I’d love too.” He’s only been in my room once, but I kicked him out almost straight away. So he’s never really seen my room. “This is cute.” He said picking up the photo frame Skye gave to me. “Yeah, it was from my birthday party. I had a photo booth.” I smiled. He placed it back down. “You look cute.” He said smiling at me. I just smiled back. I want to kiss him so bad right now, but I’m trying my hardest not to. I just had my heart re-broken. I can’t do this right now. He picked up another one of Logan, Skye and I. “You’re boyfriend?” He questioned. “Best friend.” I replied. It was a before and after. Year 6, to my birthday party as well. “Family?” He asked picking up the next one. “Old family.” He just looked at me. “Sorry.” “It’s fine.” He went to the next one. “New family.” I told him. He quickly put it down feeling awkward.

I dragged him over to the bed where we sat down.
Me: “Why did people warn me about you?”
Joe: “I had a thing with Chloe, who you probably haven’t met. But I stopped because I needed to concentrate more on myself, and she turned it into a big deal about me sleeping with her then ending it the day after. Which never happened might I add.”
Me: “And Kaylie?”
Joe: “She liked me a lot, and I thought she was cute, so I started flirting a bit, but then things got worse, I had to end it before it started so I didn’t hurt her. She must have taken it the wrong way.”
Me: “What do you mean?”
Joe: “Don’t worry.”
Me: “Okay, but why did you admit to playing girls the other day when I asked you about it?”
Joe: “I didn’t think you would believe me if I told you.” He looked down. I titled his chin up.
Me: “I might have, you would never know.”
Joe: “You would have believed Luke and Kaylie over me.”
Me: “Because they mentioned your past.” I looked awkwardly.
Joe: “Shelby, they don’t know my past.”
Me: “Neither do I.”
Joe: “You know everyone isn’t in here for eating disorders right?” I nodded.
Joe: “ I uhm, I met a girl. We dated for a year and half, she then cheated on me with my best friend. I went into depression, bad grades, I got in a lot of trouble, I didn’t listen to anyone, I didn’t do anything that anyone wanted me to do. I started getting into a lot of fights, I became a terrible person, someone I never want to become again, all because of this girl. I’m scared every day that I’m going to become that person again. I hit Zoe once, and that’s when I knew I needed help. We got into an argument about how I’d been acting, and I got so mad I- I punched her in the face. I broke her nose. But that look she gave me. I will always remember the horrified and disgusted look she gave me. My own sister was scared shitless of me. I was scared of who I became. The next day I came here. It’s been almost a year. Zoe and I fixed our relationship, and now I believe we are stronger than ever, but every once in a while, I see that look in her eye. The one that says ‘he’ll never change.’ And I hate seeing that look so bad. I have nightmares once a week about it. It used to be every night. They said I’ll leave when I stop with the dreams, but it’s hard. It’s hard seeing someone you love so much be so afraid of you that they are terrified of seeing you, or even talking to you.” I saw a tear roll down his cheek. He quickly wiped it away.
Me: “You didn’t have to tell me that.”
Joe: “Yes I did. I had to tell you.” I hugged him and didn’t let go. I couldn’t let go. I knew it was bad, but I just feel so bad for him saying that. I felt my sleeve starting to get wet. I pulled away from the hug and just stared into his eyes. I leaned in to kiss him, this time it was him who pulled away.
Joe: “You shouldn’t. Not with what happened today.” I smiled at how much he cares about me. But I leaned in again, kissing his cheek.
Me: “You mean more to me than I ever thought you would.” After that he left, and Kaylie walked in.
Kaylie: “What was that?”
Me: “Nothing.”
Kaylie: “I saw Stefan came to visit.”
Me: “Can we not talk about that.”
Kaylie: “Why?”
Me: “Please, just don’t ask, not right now.” She nodded and walked over to shower. I got changed into my pyjamas and went to bed.