Email Pals

Chapter Nine

Dear Evan Hansen,

I'm sorry for not getting back to you, I've just had alot going on. I hope you are okay. And I think you'd be surprised what most people think. It's very mundane stuff.

But my super power would definitely be invisiblility. Mainly to mess with people, but there are times I just wish I could disappear from a situation, you know?

I hope you don't mind me saying, but I've noticed you've been alot less alone the past few days and I'm happy for you. And especially with Zoe Murphy. Is anything going on there? ;)

Sincerely,

Lotus.

Evan was pleasantly surprised when he had woke up to a new email from Lotus. Although his mind went into overdrive, as usual, to the last part of the email asking about Zoe. Was something going on between them? Evan wasn't entirely sure. He was really bad at reading people. He couldn't tell if all the touching, holding hands etc. between the two was just being friendly. He and Jared never did it, but they weren't really friends until recently as Jared would often remind him.

And if there was, which he was sure there wasn't, what would he even do about it? He was only just able to talk to her without messing it up, if the possibility of a relationship was put between the two, he was sure he would mess it up then. He had no idea how to flirt. And he didn't want to hurt Zoe. It was the last thing he wanted. He couldn't even fathom the idea of hurting her.

Dear Lotus,

It's okay. We all have lives, or I'm lead to believe. And I'm good, how are you? And yeah people may have mundane thoughts, but being able to know how they want me to reply would make life alot easier for me.

And I understand that. Well, the disappearing part. I don't think I'd have the guts to mess with people. What if they knew it was me?

And yeah, I seem to have made some friends, which feels odd if I'm totally honest. I don't exactly see the appeal of me, but I won't look a gift horse in the mouth.

And no. I don't think she would ever see me like that. She's her and I'm me. And she also thinks you to have a crush on me, crazy right?

Sincerely,

Evan Hansen.

Evan quickly pressed send before he even read it through again. He knew he would overthink what he put if he did. If there was one thing Evan was good at, is knowing that he can overthink things. So he tried to limit it as much as he could. He quickly chucks his phone aside as he got ready, although his mind was still preoccupied by Lotus' question.

Was something going on between him and Zoe? He knew that she was tactile, but Evan just assumed she was like that with everyone. He hadn't seen her do it with anyone else, sure, but every time he saw her it was normally just the two of them. So it was hard to tell if it was just how she is, or how she is with Evan.

But Evan was sure there was nothing going on between the two. What could she possibly see in him? He was a mess. He could barely work in a normal situation with people around. Constantly ticking away, just doing stuff that would annoy the hell out of people.

Evan sometimes missed being alone. He never had to worry about this stuff back then.

***

Evan slid into Zoe's car who had a radiance to her this morning. Evan couldn't quite place it, but she brought his mood up instantly.

"Hey Ev" she beams, leaning over the centre of the car to give him a hug. One which he awkwardly reciprocates with his one hand, as he was in quite an awkward position for a hug.