Through Heaven and Hell [Dabi x reader]

Chapter 7

"Please, don't do this!! I'm begging you", I plead to the gods for mercy. The knot on my throat was making it more difficult to speak, it was getting harder to contain my sobs as the seconds passed. 'Who could've done this? Why him? He has done nothing wrong, why? Why?! WHY?!!', those were my thoughts while I watched how they stripped me of my other half with nothing I could do to stop it.

The hole in my heart was getting bigger and harder to bear every step he took away from me. His head was hung low making his white hair hide his beautiful blue eyes but I could see a fresh stream of tears run down his cheeks. As a last attempt to comfort him I yelled from the bottom of my heart, my throat raw from crying and screaming, "This is not the end, I will see you again, T-".

I abruptly woke up from another nightmare yet again, these strange dreams are happening more often lately and it's making me uneasy. The familiarity of the people I see in them is making me think that these are not just any dreams, past memories maybe? My life as an angel is all a blur after all, perhaps these 'dreams' are visions of when I was in heaven.

I stood up from my bed and made my way to the bathroom to take a shower and wash away all these thoughts that are only giving me more questions and headaches. After showering and getting a change of clothes, I made my way to the dining room for some breakfast.

After a week of living in the castle, I'm getting more familiar with the structure of it. At least I don't get lost that often.

Sitting on the table, Dabi was there in his designated chair, reading a book with lots of food in front. This was some unspoken routine we got used to. Eating breakfast together while making small conversation, both of us started to get accustomed to each other's company. After getting to know him a little bit, he's not as bad as he seems.

"Good morning, Dabi", I politely greeted him while taking my seat beside him, preparing a plate of delicious food for myself.

"Morning' angelface", he said to me, closing his book and placing it on the table. Directing his gaze at me, from the corner of my eye I could see a faint smile spread on his rosy lips thinking it got unnoticed by me.

Something I've been catching on recently is how at random times he would look at me when he thinks I'm distracted and a subtle smile would form on his lips but it disappears as soon as it appears. It makes me think that he enjoys my presence more than he lets on. And seeing him smile is a rare thing, so I never say anything about catching him doing these little things in fear he would stop. His smile makes me warm inside, something I wouldn't admit out loud though.

"How's your little wing doing?", he asked me, trying to sound as careless as he could but he wasn't fooling me. I could hear the slight concern on his voice, making a small smile appear on my face.

Another thing I noticed through this week is that he constantly checks up on me, even though he tries to hide it behind his carefree and selfish persona. Sometimes he sends Chiyo to ask me how I'm doing, if I'm comfortable or if she can make me something to eat. And other times, he would personally come to my room just to see what I'm doing.

"It's doing good, the wound is already healed and I can fly again. Thank you for your concern", I replied to him while still eating my food.

"Yeah whatever", the conversation dies down and we're engulfed in a comfortable silence while we finish our breakfast.

After he finished, without saying a word, he stood up from his chair and walked away to his office. In the past few days he's been spending a lot of time locked up there. One time I tried getting in, I was planning on bringing him lunch since he didn't eat anything all day, and once I stepped inside the room he snapped at me and kicked me out, saying how I couldn't enter his study without permission and sending me back to my room. Yeah... we don't talk about that day.

But he's having these strange mood swings, one minute he's all concerned for me and the next one he's mad at me like I did something wrong. I haven't confronted him about it cause I don't want to upset him or anything so I just let it slide.

I swiftly stand up from my seat and with nothing else to do, I make my way to the library. Something I've been doing more often, I spend hours on end reading book after book, is my little escape from reality. Sometimes it makes me forget the fact that I'm in hell and it makes me happy. On the other hand, I notice how Dabi always has a book on his hands at breakfast, but I've never seen him step a foot inside the library.

I entered the said room and I'm welcomed with the smell of books and sandalwood from the bookshelves. It has become one of my comfort scents since I had spent the most part of my stay here in the library, not that i'm complaining, I really enjoy reading.

The library is a two story big room surrounded by bookshelves full of different types of books. At the center of the room, there's a little lounge space with couches and chairs so you can sit and enjoy a good reading with a coffee table in the center.

I walked to the table and picked up the book I was reading the day before, taking a seat on the comfortable sofa behind me.

Hours passed and I was still engulfed in the story I was reading. At some point in the afternoon, Chiyo came and brought me something to eat; we talked a little while I was eating and eventually I asked her about how she met Dabi. She told me that when she first arrived here in hell she saw him wasted and breaking down on a dirty alley near his club, some mother instinct kicked in and she helped him and she's been with him since that day. It was really sweet honestly.

After she left I kept reading, but I was interrupted by my reading trance when Dabi entered the library. He didn't say anything, he just grabbed a book from a bookshelf in front of me and plopped beside me on the couch. I didn't think too much of it so i just kept reading in silence enjoying his presence.

This kept for a couple hours and every time I lifted my gaze to check on Dabi, somehow, we were sitting closer to each other, not that I minded so I let it happen. I don't know how it occurred but at the end of the evening, Dabi was sitting between my legs while I read to him and played with his hair.

It was really peaceful so I didn't complain and he didn't seem to mind either. While I let my fingers comb through his dark hair, I noticed white roots starting to grow in his scalp, so his natural hair is white, just like the man from my dreams. I didn't think too much of it, it was probably just a coincidence so I resumed my reading.

After a while, he was the one reading now and his voice soothes me, almost lulling me to sleep and his musky scent only added to the sleepiness. His aroma brought some sense of easiness and comfort like we've strangely done this before, making me drift off to sleep in his warm arms with a smile on my face.

I think I found my new comfort scent.