Cupid's Chokehold

CCH #64

"Hoy wren, kanina pa may naghihintay sa'yo don sa labas."

Huh? Wala naman akong natandaan na may plano akong lumabas.

Dali-dali ko pa rin niligpit ang mga gamit ko saka lumabas ng room, only to be greeted by his face.

God, I missed him.

He's standing in front of me, holding a bouquet of flowers habang nangangamot ng batok. He's shy, ang cute. Madami rin kasing estudyante na naglalakad since kakatapos lang ng mga period, nakikiusyoso lahat sila, ikaw ba naman makita mo si Gian ng Quantum Leap sa building niyo 'di ka mapapatigil?

I'm sorry gals akin na 'yan.

Ay gagi wren akala ko ba may pinagdadaanan ka? Ang rupok ko jusko.

"What are you doing here?"

"I'm waiting for you." Sabi nito saka inabot sa akin yung bulaklak, nagkaroon ng ilang hiyawan kaya napatingin ako sa mga tao, gago dumami.

Tinanggap ko agad yung bulaklak saka hinila siya paalis don, nagk-cause na kami ng traffic sa building e.

Noong mahila ko na siya palabas ng building siya naman nagturo kung saan nakapark kotse niya kaya sabay kaming pumunta don.

This feels like deja vu. Palagi na lang dito sa kotse niya at palagi na lang ako yung may toyo. I feel like I keep doing this to him.

"Hey, how are you? I'm really sorry about my family."
He's the first one to break the silence again. Sometimes I feel like I'm not enough for him.

"You don't have to. Ako dapat 'yung magsorry kasi ang petty ko.. pinapalaki ko palagi yung wala lang dapat. I'm sorry you always have to understand me. Kaya I understand din kung bakit ayaw sakin ng family mo at kung magsasawa ka kasi hindi mad-"

I can't look at him. Nilalaro ko lang ang mga daliri ko until I felt his hand on mine.

"Hey, hey look at me." He said not letting me finish my words, and I looked at him.

"Have I ever told you how wonderful you are? Wren you might not have the slightest idea how you affect me but believe me you do, every fucking time I'm having trouble with something I always talk to you right? You know why? Because you always give me the answer, you make things easier for me to understand and that makes me fall for you even more. I want to tell you you're enough but no.. you're more than enough. I'm sorry but I'm not letting you go."

I've never been this speechless all my life, kasi ako palagi yung madaming sinasabi.

"What about your family? Magagalit sila sayo."

"They won't, Gild actually likes you I didn't really want to tell you that but I think I have to and even if they don't like you who cares?"

I stayed silent again.

What did I do to deserve him?

"Doc, mawala na lahat sakin wag lang ikaw."

Tangina. Tangina. I know I promised him babawasan ko na pagmumura pero tangina talaga.

Wait what do I do. Should I ask him? Should I?

"How about ate Kim?"

"What about her?"

"Wala ka bang nararamdaman? Have you talked to her?"

"We did diba? Wala namang pinatunguhan. Listen to me okay? I'll always choose you no matter what. My time with Kim is completely done. Dumating man yung panahon na I might care for her but it won't be like before. Don't worry about other things okay?"

"Hmm, thank you Gian." I replied nodding.

"Let's eat this cake, sayang yung icing pahulas na."