SAVE ME || KTH

21

Y/n sat there, shocked. I didn't say anything as I waited for her to respond but she didn't. I let out a breath as I realized I was being selfish. Y/n has her own life and I can't expect her to drop everything to stay here with me. She was right, I needed some time to be alone. To figure myself and my life out now that I no longer had Nari.

"Okay, I'm sorry, I understand. When are you leaving?" I ask, sad but trying my best to hold it together. Y/n looks over at me, our eyes meeting. "Probably now. I'll get my things together then I have some stuff I have to do before I go home." She says as she stands up, gathering her belongings from my room.

I didn't want her to go. I didn't want to be here alone by myself. In this house of nothing but horrible memories and sadness. Y/n was the one thing keeping me sane here and now she was leaving...

I watched as she got everything together then announced that she was about to go. I couldn't think of anything to say although my head was filled with a million thoughts. "Walk me out?" Y/n asks and of course I do.

Once we get to the front door Y/n turned to face me. "Thank you." She says and I tilt my head to the side, confused. "Thank you for what?" I ask, unsure of why she was thanking me when she was here to help me. I should be the one saying thank you, not her.

"Just for being you." She says as she wraps her arms around me so tight I almost couldn't breathe. I hug her back, not wanting to let her go. I wasn't ready for her to let go and walk out the door. I wasn't ready to be alone here with my thoughts.

When she pulled back she smiled a sad smile as she turned on her heels, ready to walk out the door. "Text me when you get home so I know you got there safe, okay." I say, feeling a twinge of pain in my chest. "Of course." She smiles before she dissapears from the doorway.

I watch as she gets in her car and backs out. She's gone and now I was alone. I know I needed this time to be alone though, I had to re learn being on my own. It was going to be difficult and most days it will hurt like hell but I can do this, I have to.

For me.

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A few weeks had passed since y/n went home and things were a bit better. I was mostly working day and night so I didn't have time to think and feel lonely. It wasn't the healthiest but I was just trying to take things one day at a time.

I still texted y/n almost daily but lately I hadn't heard much from her. The last I talked to her was nearly a week ago. It sucked because all I wanted to do was talk to her but I knew I couldn't do that. I had sent her a few texts checking in but she hadn't responded.

Honestly it upset me. I didn't want to over do it though so I didn't keep texting. I got ahold of Namjoon and even he hadn't talked to her. It was definitely concerning but sometimes y/n just did this. She'd disappear from time to time then suddenly reappear so I wasn't thinking too hard about it.

She had been on my mind a lot lately though. I missed her, I miss my best friend. Especially right now, I seemed to miss her more then I ever had. I like y/n, there was no denying that and that made me afraid. I didn't think I'd ever like someone again after the hurt Nari put me through but y/n is diffrent. She's my best friend, she's well, y/n.

The only person who has stood by me through everything. The one person I know will always be there when I need them. Y/n was the one person I cared about more then I cared about myself. Even though that scared the hell out of me, Y/n is the only person I want.

As much as it scared me to admit, I like y/n, a lot. I like her so damn much that I was terrified. I didn't want to lose y/n by having these feelings for her. We've been best friends for years and if I told her and she didn't feel the same way that would ruin everything and that thought alone, killed me.

I couldn't let her know...ever.
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"Happy birthday!!" Jimin yelled, a bright smile on his face as everyone around him cheered for me. It was my birthday and currently all of my friends were at my place celebrating it with me. Except for...

"Has anyone heard from Y/n? I've been trying to get ahold of her for weeks now. She's completely M.I.A." Jungkook says and everyone seems to agree that they haven't heard from her. I was definitely worried now. It had been nearly a month now since I had heard from y/n and I was far from okay.

She wasn't even here on my birthday and she never missed my birthday ever. We had made a vow when we were younger that we would always see each other on our birthdays no matter what but she wasn't here...

"I hope she's okay." Namjoon says, a sadness in his eyes at the mention of her. We were definitely all worried at this point. Although I wasn't showing it, I was breaking inside. I missed her so much.

"She has to show up today, she's never missed a single one of your birthdays." Jimin says sadly. "I know..." I say, feeling myself becoming sadder at the thought. "I'll try texting her again but I doubt she'll answer." Yoongi's girlfriend says as she pulls out her phone.

It was pointless. She wouldn't answer. I had no idea what was going on and I was worried sick. Everyday I was tempted to show up at her place but I had to stop myself from doing so. When she went through periods like this it was best to just give her her space. So that's what I was doing, no matter how much it sucked.
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For hours we all sat around and partied. Once late eleven rolled around everyone decided to head home. It was almost midnight now and still no y/n. She really wasn't coming...For the first time ever, she wasn't going to be here on my birthday. I couldn't help but to feel sad.

Out of every birthday wish I made, the one thing I wanted to come true the most, was for y/n to be here.

I watched as the clock went from 11:49 to 11:52 to 11:55 and I began to lose hope completely. She really wasn't coming....

At exactly 11:57 my phone dinged. When I picked it up I saw a text from y/n that read: "Open the door."

I sprinted to the front door and swung it open  to find y/n standing in the doorway, her face flushed. "Y/n, where have you-" But I was cut off as her body came crashing into mine, her face only inches away from my own. "Happy birthday Taehyung." Then her lips pressed softly against mine.

That was 11:59.

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A/n: I'm off for the next three days so I'm definitely gonna try to write lots during that time!!! I hope you guys are enjoying the story so far!! (: