Passing Winter (Completed)

II.

We arrived back at our house late at night, we had to shop for some groceries which took a lot of time. Lucas told me that we should talk about what happened in the morning, saying to also get a good night's rest.

...

December 14, and the next morning came. I woke up to an already awake Lucas next to me, a soft stare on my still sleepy face. I looked at the alarm clock, and it was actually early, just past 6 o'clock. I looked back, and he was still staring, concerned and worried.

"So, um... can we talk about what happened yesterday?" He softly asked, as his hand caressed my cheek, and I did the same to him.

The warmth of his hand made me more sleepy. But, I caught myself from sleeping. I had to come clean and be honest.

"I- I don't know what happened. When I didn't see you and Devin, I panicked." Speaking honestly, his face still shows that he's worried. Lucas just nodded, smiled, and remained silent.

It was like he was subtly urging me to tell him everything and be honest. That it's fine to feel and be like this.

"I was restless, when I didn't see you two. It made me feel really anxious." I said and just snuggled closer to him, burying my face in his chest and hugged him as he hugged me back and gently stroked my hair.

"When I ran around looking for both of you, I couldn't stop worrying and panicking. At the last moment, I just remembered to call you. When I heard your voice, I felt... relieved."

I continued talking about what happened and what I felt during that experience. And at this moment, in our room, I didn't think about anything else other than being honest with Lucas, and the words in my mind,

"He's here with me, he's safe. Devin's in the other room, sleeping soundly and safe."

During the talk, I didn't realize that my eyelids were getting heavier as I just completely blacked out.

Waking up, I expected to be alone, while Lucas was in the kitchen making breakfast. But, I was glad to see him now asleep, with his arms loosely hugging me.

"I love him... so much." Were the only words I instantly thought of when I was staring at his sleeping face.

Looking at the alarm, it was already 9 o' clock. So, I tried to get up as quietly as possible, but Lucas woke up when I was trying to get off of the bed.

"Love? Are you alright? Do you need anything?" He said, rubbing his eyelids, still looking very sleepy.

"Yes love, we need to make breakfast. Devin might be awake and he might be getting hungry." I smiled a bit, seeing him slowly getting up.

"Okay, but are you sure you're feeling better?" Lucas asked, making sure I'm completely fine.

Giving a small chuckle, I slowly walked up to him, gave a hug, then kissed him on the lips. Lucas gave me a nod, smiled and kissed me back.

We then went to Devin's room to check on him. He was just patiently waiting on his bed.

"Devin, buddy? You alright? Have you been awake?" I asked Devin, he was looking a bit sad.

"Dad, I'm sorry." He said sadly.

"Oh buddy, was it because of yesterday?" My little Devin, I made him worry yesterday.

"A-Am I the reason why daddy Finn cried?"

"N-no buddy, no. Daddy Finn was just tired, and- and I got scared when I didn't see you or daddy Lucas. Okay?" I just hugged Devin tightly, and felt saddened at the thought that I'm the reason he's sad. I don't want my boy to ever feel sad, because of me.

I hugged Devin for a few minutes, I asked if he wanted to help with breakfast, and Devin nodded. All of us went and made, and ate breakfast together.

After breakfast, Lucas wanted, well, subtly decided, for all of us to just stay home for today to "relax" and have a "lazy day". Honestly, it sounded really great if it wasn't for the fact that I knew Lucas was doing this because of what happened yesterday.

But, I didn't question it. He also must've been really shaken up when he saw me panicking like that.

...

"Night daddy Finn." Devin said as his eyes slowly fluttered, nodding off and going to sleep.

"G'night, my little Devin. Sweet dreams." I whispered, then gave Devin a small kiss on the forehead, turned on the night light, and went out the room slowly closing the door to not wake him up.

I turned around to see Lucas, waiting for me outside of our room.

"Love, what's wrong? Are you having trouble sleeping?" Lucas has been acting a bit weird ever since he saw me panicking in the mall.

He really was shaken up after what happened.

"Love, you know I love you. Right?" He asked slowly, walking towards me.

"Yes, I know." I walked up towards him as well, and pulled him into a hug.

"And, you love me too, right?"

"I do. I love you very much. I love you so much to the point that by seeing your smile, your face, just by seeing you, makes me fall in love with you again and again." Reassuring everything I said with a kiss on the forehead, a kiss on the cheek, and a kiss on the lips.

"So please, if you feel there's something bothering you or if you're just having a bad day, come to me and tell me everything, okay?" Lucas said teary-eyed as he returned the kisses.

"Of course, for better or for worse, right?" I said, softly smiling at him.

"Yes, and I'm here for you no matter what." He replied, smiling back.

After our moment, we went into our room and slept in each other's arms. I closed my eyes with hope. I hope that tomorrow is more peaceful, and I hope that whatever I'm feeling is just temporary and it'll eventually go away.

So, my Lucas and little Devin won't need to worry about me. And, we can continue living together happily.