The School Heartthrob || Na Jaemin

19. What Should I Do?

[Dream Café]

[Jaemin POV]

I went there as Winter told me and Jisung to meet her there. when I arrived, I saw Winter already waiting for me along with Jisung. "Sorry for making you guys waiting for me" I said while taking a seat beside Jisung. "It's alright" Winter said. "So what do you want to tell us?" Jisung asked her. "Well... it's about Y/N" she said and made Jisung and I looked at her puzzledly then we heard she took a deep breath before continuing her words "Can you guys stop treating like that? It's not because I'm jealous of her but she told me that she felt uncomfortable but she doesn't feel good to tell you guys. I know both of you are fighting to get her feelings, right? But about that, she still doesn't sure about her own feelings. She said she doesn't deserve you. You guys deserve someone better than her" I looked at my coffee without saying anything. "Let's stop this, hyung. We just make her feel uncomfortable around us. Let just follow the flow maybe someday she will like one of us" Jisung said and I looked at him. "Sure" I said. "Thank you so much for your cooperation. I hope after this, you guys still can treat Y/N like in the past, please don't make her sad" Winter said. "Ofc, we won't do that" Jisung smiled at her. "Is there anything you still want to tell us?" I asked her and she shook her head. "I have something to do, so I need to go now" I excused myself. "Thank you for coming today" Winter smiled at me and I smiled back before walking out of the café.

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[Jaemin House]

What should I do? Should I let her go? I love her but I don't know how to say it. I ruffled my hair in frustration and my mom saw it. "What's wrong, Jaem?" she patted my back. "Nothing, I'm fine" I replied coldly then stood up. "I'm your mom. I know everything about you and I know you're not fine right now" she said and I sighed "Let me solve it by myself. I'm an adult now. don't worry" I said and went to my room. I didn't go out of my room after I went home from the café. I didn't even eat my dinner and it made my mom worried. 'Knock...knock' "Come in" I said while still closing my eyes. "Madam and Master call you to eat" Ok Seok said. "But I'm not hungry" I replied coldly. "But—" I cut her words "Just tell them I'm not hungry and I want to sleep. What's so hard about that? Just say like what I just said" I raised my voice a bit but then I heard my father's voice "Na Jaemin!" I opened my eyes and saw him standing in front of my bed. "What?" I replied shortly. "Why do you behave like this, huh? Your mom told me that your behavior changed since you went home this afternoon." He said in a firm tone. "Why do you care so much?" I stood up and I got slapped by my father. "I never taught you to talk back to someone older than you. Where all your manners go, huh?" he was mad at me. "You didn't go to the office today, right? Where did you go?" he added but I was still silent. "I said WHERE DID YOU GO?" he yelled at me and made all my maids and mom surprised. "Stop it, honey. He probably has his own reason why he didn't go to the office today" my mom tried to calm down my dad. I just looked at my parents without saying any words. "Jaemin, please talk before he's getting even mad at you" My mom said, I took a deep breath then said "I went somewhere with my friends this afternoon" "Why didn't you tell me?" my father asked me. "They called me all of sudden" I lied. "I know you're liking someone but that's not the reason to be like this. There are still a lot of girls out there" his words made me shocked. "What do you mean, dad?" I looked at him. "Don't act like you don't understand me. you brought a girl, right? When we were still in the USA" he said. "Is that true, darling?" my mom asked me. "Then why If it's true? And who told you guys about that?" I asked my parents. "Ok Seok and the other maids told us" he replied then I looked at the maids who looked so scared then I looked back at my parents. "You have known the reason, so go out from my room now. I need rest" I said coldly. "Jaemin...." my mom said. "I'm tired, mom" I said. "Let him rest" my mom said while taking my dad out of my room. After all of them out, I sat on the edge of my bed then ruffled my hair again.

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[Time Skip – Cafeteria]

[Jaemin POV]

I saw Winter and Y/N came toward our direction. Winter greeted us and all of us greeted her back, except me. "Are you alright?" Y/N asked me and I just gave her a cold gaze. "Yah, she's asking you" Renjun slapped my back. "I'm fine" I replied to her coldly then I saw her walked away with a sad face appearing on her face. It hurt me but I didn't know what should I do. "Yah, didn't you realize that you made her sad?" Jeno asked me. "So?" I looked at them. "What's wrong with you today? Why you're acting cold toward her again? Don't you like her?" Haechan bombardier me with a lot of questions. "I'm fine" I said while eating my food. "And you, why you're kept silent? Usually, you will become so happy when you see Y/N" Chenle asked Jisung. "I'm alright" Jisung replied shortly. "Both of you seem weird today. What happened yesterday?" Mark hyung asked us. "Nothing happened yesterday" Jisung said. "But---" I cut Jeno's word "Stop asking or talking about her. I'm sick of it" I said and all of them seemed to be surprised with my words but they didn't reply either.

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[Jisung POV]

"I'm sorry Y/N for treating you like that but I think that is the only way for me to forget about you. I don't feel anything special when I get near you. I think I started to realize that my feelings for you only as my sister not more than that but I'm still not sure about that" I thought while staring at my food. "Why don't you eat your food?" Chenle tapped my back. "huh?" I looked at him. "Did you space out again?" he asked me and I just nodded. "Eat fast. Lunchtime almost end" he replied and I just nodded while eating my food.