I'll tell you in 30 years

32 - Familiar Rhythm

When I entered his condo, he was walking towards the door, with Lui Feng behind him...Why was he here?  Vina told me that he would be arriving tonight.  Lui Feng looked at my face, as if in shock.  And there I was carrying three full bags of groceries, walking in on them.  

After a brief stunned moment on Jun's face, he walked towards me to take two bags, ever so casually.  I stammered my greetings, "Hi, Sorry, didn't know that you are back.  If I knew, I would have rung the doorbell."   I quickly continued, not wanting Lui Feng to have any misunderstanding, "I am just here to air his place and fill up his things.  Don't mind me, once I put the things down, I will leave."  

Lui Feng did get my message, he very kindly told me, "Don't worry, I am rushing off for a photo shoot."  He smiled and went to Jun, gave him a peck on his cheeks and walked out.

I was frozen on the spot and Jun looked at me, and we started laughing.  "Oh Gosh, did I get you into trouble?"  Jun already started unpacking my purchase, putting the milk and yogurt in the fridge.  "Hmm, you got the blueberry yogurt.  Did you get any flour?"  As he went through the rest of the bags.  "Any eggs?"  I was still frozen there, but he was like normal only, taking out the eggs and flour that I purchased.

When he realized that I was quiet, he raised his head and answered me, "Don't worry, he is cool.  I was too restless last night, and decided to drive back.  I arrived at midnight.  Did you have any breakfast?  I am making blueberries pancakes."  

Ar...my weakness, his pancakes.  Without waiting for my reply, he turned and started on the pancake mix.  Okay, so this was NOT AWKWARD AT ALL.

After unpacking the rest, I walked around to admire his new place.  Jun's place is very well lit. Entering the living room, you can see the bright light reflecting on his wooden floor and furniture, He still kept to the wood and rustic theme.  But this was a much smaller place, compared to ours.   His latest photoshoot was framed up nicely, life size picture in his living room.  This was a two rooms unit, one was his master-bedroom, his king-sized bed was messy, the other room, he converted it to a work place, complete with his livestream equipment, microphone, and lights.    Hmmm... no pictures of Lui Feng.  That was odd, because our old place was littered with our pictures. 

I walked back to the open kitchen, looking at his back.  Jun was still the same.  Very coordinated moves, no energy was wasted, from the pan to the plate.  Wearing a simple white t, that accentuated his perfect body, his hair unruly and casual, with the afterglow of a good romp in bed.    This image of him cooking breakfast for us, as if it was a normal occurrence.  I had to take a step back.  My heart was beating so rapidly that I needed to take a deep breath.

Previously, it would be so natural for me, hug him from behind, sliding my hands into his biceps, muzzling on his neck and whining that I was hungry.  He would shoo me away or tell me to behave, before pressing his lips to mine.  Or carry me on top of the island, and take down my shorts and nail me within an inch of my life.   Okay, too x rated already.  I really need to calm my tiddies down.  It had been dry for too long.  

I took my cigarette from my pocket.  He turned around, slightly raising the corner of his mouth, "You still smoking?  Go and smoke on the balcony.  I will call you once I am done."

By the time he called me, I had smoked at least 3 sticks.   I saw the pancake, with cream, butter and jam on the table, as he passed me a tumbler of ice coffee.  "Come, eat."    

And just as casually, I saw down, wolfing down the pancake, with my ex that just slept with his boyfriend.  The messy bed would bear witness to their activities.  Being with him, in such an intimate space, I could almost smell him, his wake-up smell, I remember the taste of the toothpaste in his mouth.  We were once very familiar with each other, we kissed each other's faces, caressed and stroked each other's bodies.  Just by one glance, he knew my turmoil boiling inside.  More than anything, he was surprised, and I really wanted to flee.