Overdue - Jack Gilinsky imagine -

Overdue part 7

I was walking with Justin all around the building. He was checking with the cameramen and producers to make sure everything was running smoothly. Then we walked into the kitchen to see the courses that were prepared. There was so much food from chicken to sushi and so many desserts that one bite was definitely a heart attack. Finally we stopped backstage so he could get his microphone placed on and I was just sitting on a stool watching him.
That would have been the perfect time to cry right? Well Justin said don't cry here so I wasn't. I did feel bad because it was his birthday and he was carrying me along trying to make me feel better. I was about to just get up and go to my table when I realized that I might be sitting with Jack and Madison.
I hit my head on the back of the wall and Justin turned his head towards me.
"What's wrong gorgeous?"
"I really hope I'm not sitting at the table with my ex otherwise this is going to be so awkward." I whispered as I ran my fingers through my hair. I didn't care anymore. There was no one to impress. There was no reason to look perfect anymore so why try? Plus I'm just bringing more volume to my hair and creating those retro waves.
"Let me work some magic," he said while touching my chin and walking over to one of the coordinators. Ten minutes passed and he lead me through the main room. I had linked arms with Justin and in one section were all Justin's celebrity friends from John Legend to Martha Stewart, and then I saw all my Viner friends sitting in another section. I saw the table where Jack, Madison, and Matt were sitting. This guy was taking pictures of them, and once again I couldn't help but look. Jack was wearing all black like he said we should. But she was wearing white and black so I'm guessing I can see the match.
Matt looked up and we immediately caught eyes and his jaw dropped. I saw Madison's mouth move and she followed suit looking where Matt was and she too even looked surprised. The last was Jack who was just staring into space. He must have noticed the silence at his table and he too finally looked and for the first time tonight we caught eyes. My ex-boyfriend looking at his e- can I even call myself his ex? Were we even anything serious? I'm not labeling myself a lie so him seeing me with the one of the biggest pop stars in the world even made his jaw drop.
I stared at all of them for about 10 more seconds when Justin finally stopped at a huge table. I looked to see all of his family?! His mom, dad, siblings, manager, bodyguard, Alfredo, Ryan, Chaz and his grandparents all sitting in one circle and two seats left open....
"Justin this is very sweet of you but I can't sit with your family they don't even know me!"
"It's fine princess, I'm not gonna have a good time knowing that you're unhappy and plus my family will turn that sad face into that beautiful smile in no time, don't worry."
I sighed and nodded my head and he smiled while kissing my cheek. He walked me over to where his mom was sitting and sat me right next to her. Justin was such a gentlemen, and the gorgeous woman next to me definitely raised him right. Justin ran up to the stage and took a seat with the other comedians and I just sat there quietly wanting to look at my phone. It was practically burning through my clutch but I knew if I looked I would send the nastiest message to Jack. But I also had no chill at the moment so I would probably post it to Twitter and that's not good for the both of us.
Wow even after all he's done to me I'm still caring for him. Isn't that insane? I guess I hadn't broken down and cried yet because I was still in shock. The events of that interview kept playing in my head like a loop from Vine. Having to stand there and watch them be happy was evil and exactly...like my dreams?!??!?!!
It all made sense now but that just made me want to cry more. I'm wearing all black, Jack didn't even look at me, he professed his love for Madison in front of the whole world, and I had to sit back and watch. I couldn't breathe I literally just lived one of my nightmares. I picked up my water glass and took a large sip catching the attention of Justin's mom.
"Are you okay sweety?"
"Oh yes I'm just a little thirsty I'm fine!" I smiled at her.
She laughed and grabbed my hand rubbing it softly,"I know that smile and I know that you want to run out of here and go to the nearest bathroom and cry your eyes out, but don't. That only means that you're letting whatever happened to you know that it hurt you and you never give something like that, that kind of power. It only means they won."
DAMNIT WAS SAD AND HEARTBROKEN TATTOOED ON MY FOREHEAD?!!
"I'm trying so hard! It's not fair. After 4 months of love and loyalty I got my heart torn apart in only 5 minutes," I whispered as the tears were peeking its way through. Wow another reference to my dream for when they tore my dress part. Except it was the interviewer who tore my heart up with those questions and how they all looked so happy for them. "He was my prince Ms. Malette."
"Well maybe you had the wrong prince," she said and we turned our attention to Kevin Hart who started talking. I looked at the stage and my eyes caught with Justin and he was staring back at me. I gave him a small smile and he winked back.
I looked around the quiet room. It was like everyone was so in love with one another. Literally everyone had a date or group and I was here by myself. I looked at Jack and he was looking at the stage when his eyes slowly started looking around and they finally landed on mine.
"I'm sorry for everything Madison said to you back there. You guys were right I can't believe I didn't see it," he said while looking at the ceiling and ghosting his hand down my bare back.
"Hey," I whispered as I brought my hand to outline his jaw,"Don't blame yourself for that. Everyone has that one bad relationship and that one person who we think is our everything and they turn out to be nothing but we shouldn't dwell on it."
"You always know what to say to make me feel better Y/N."
"You're not that deep so it's easy to figure you out," I said while smirking.
"Yeah well what am I about to do now," he said while gently pulling my blanket down and jumping on top of me....
I felt sick. Every time I looked at him some memory started to play in my head and the more he looked at me the more it made me want to cry. Why couldn't I just cry! I'm not that known so it's not like paparazzi were even going to care. I shook my head at Jack and turned my head back to the stage where apparently the comedians already started.
Honestly I applaud Justin for doing this because there is no way in hell I would purposefully ask someone to roast me...I'd cry. I thought about everything Justin had did for me today like we were best friends. He was going out of his way to make me feel better but why me? Of course I knew who Justin was but we weren't buddy-buddy. We never hung out, we don't text, we don't talk. I only met him once and I was with Matt and Nash. I didn't even talk to him for a long time. I told him my name and we were in Nash's snapchat story but that's it. It wasn't that deep so why was he being so...amazing. Was he always like this and I never noticed it?
The night was still young when the roast ended. Justin made his final speech and now everyone was leaving. I finally took out my phone and looked at Twitter. The only two trending topics I cared about were #BieberRoast and #Jadison.
"Y/N!"
I looked up to see Matt walking towards me and "Jadison" walking behind him.
"Do you want a ride back to your house? We can drop you off on the way after Madison?" Matt asked while looking at me.
"Actually I got her bro."
We all looked to see Justin behind me with his phone and car keys. He smiled at me and gently took my hand.
"You ready?"
I looked at Matt and flickered my eyes to Jack but he wasn't looking in our direction. I nodded my head and walked away with Justin turning back around to see Matt and Madison looking as surprised as I probably looked. I looked at Jack who was still looking the other way while clenching his jaw, something he only did when he was concentrating or upset. Question is: Which one?
We walked to Justin's Range and he once again was a gentlemen and opened my door for me. We started driving and all I saw was empty road. I'm guessing I'm not going home tonight. Pulling up to his gates I saw his HUGE house and other many cars. It kinda reminded me of Taylor's house except this one was on steroids.
I got out and followed him inside and it was even more lavish than the outside. The marble floors and everything was white and gold. I saw pictures of his mom, siblings, and old pictures of him and other celebrities like Katy Perry and old Miley. I walked into I'm guessing the main room and saw a huge white piano in the middle of the room. I sat at the bench and took off my heels.
"You like it?" Justin said while loosening his tie.
"Yeah it's beautiful Justin you have nice taste in decor."
"I like nice things, but it's nice considering what I had before I'm grateful for everything though...Come on let's get you changed."
"How? I didn't bring any clothes?"
"You can wear something of mine, I know you don't want to stay in that dress."
We walked upstairs and I saw his bedroom and I swore I thought it was another level to the house. It was that big!
"You can fit like 8 bedrooms in here!" Justin laughed and walked into his closet coming back out shirtless and handing me some sweatpants and a white tshirt.
"If you go out this room and count three doors down there's a guest room and you can change in there."
I nodded and walked back out. I felt like I was in a palace. A princess lost in a castle. The guest room looked better than my whole loft and I finally looked at myself in the mirror. I didn't look a mess but yet I felt like trash. No offense to Justin but he was just adding sparkle to my wound. Yeah it looked pretty but underneath it still hurt. No one was understanding that I was hurt!
Jack lied, cheated, and stole my love, trust and everything I had for him. He took my virginity. He was my first everything. He's the guy I'm going to compare everyone else too. You'd think any other guy would be better than Jack but in my head he was my one and only. I started unzipping the dress and quickly put on Justin's clothes. I looked at my reflection and I never thought I'd be one of those girls but I started to criticize myself. I looked at my hair and noticed split ends. I had chubby cheeks and I lifted my shirt to see a bit of bulge.
"Maybe Jack left bec-"
"You play tennis?" Justin asked while leaning up against the door frame and interrupting my thoughts.
"A bit..why? It's pitch black outside."
"Cmon"
I followed Justin out the house and we started walking down this long pathway. Justin had a huge swimming pool, a guest house, basketball court, and last but not least a tennis court.
"Of course you'd have your own tennis court," I mumbled and watched as he turned on the lights and handed my a racket.
"You serve first baby."
"Baby?"
"Oh I'm sorry is that making you uncomfor-"
"No it's fine...it's nice actually..."
"So what happened tonight?"
I sighed as a bounced the ball and gently hit it over to Justin and we were just rallying back and forth while I explained my story. I don't know why but telling it to someone else made me feel worse because I started to feel so stupid.
"What did he say after?"
"Nothing...it probably would have been some stupid shit. He couldn't even look at me." My voice started to crack and I realized how bad I really wanted to cry. I sat down on the ground and hugged my arms together, remembering what Justin's mom said about not crying. Justin ran over and sat down next to me but I turned my head to the other side. I didn't want him to see me like this. It was pathetic....
"You know what it's nothing. Just a bad breakup...everyone gets hurt and everyone gets over it," I said quickly and tried getting up but Justin pulled me back down.
"I know I said don't cry at the party because your ex was there, but no ones here but me...you can let it all out..."
Why was he so perfect?
I closed my eyes and finally let the tears fall. They came one after the other in a steady stream. I was crying so hard that I even let out a yelp. I covered my mouth and just started crying. I felt Justin wrap his arms around me and rub my back and that's what I was doing....at 3 am...sitting on a tennis court with a guy I barely knew crying my eyes out like I had done the previous days bef