Overdue part 9

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I'm the nicest person you'll ever meet, but the person I love more and who I will look out for more than anyone is myself. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I can't help that. Call it a gift or a curse? Am I an angel or foolish little girl that always sees opportunity as a moment to save someone? My mother always fixed things. Whether it be a tear in my dress or a wound on my knee. She always stitched back up my heart. I guess that's where I get it. The boys used to say that my kind of love and purity I held in my heart would always shine through my eyes and be seen through my actions.
But why do good things happen to bad people, and why do bad things happen to people who only want the best and do good to everybody? If I'm an angel then my halo has been snatched way too many times. My heart doesn't feel golden anymore. I keep telling myself that I don't care about them anymore but I do....
Lied too...betrayed...humiliated...tossed aside...It's like whenever I try to find the benefit of the doubt my memories come back and I feel myself getting hot. I haven't cried in days and that makes me happy and scared. Happy because whenever I cry I get headaches but scared because when the tears are gone that only leaves the hate and hurt feelings.
I've never hated anyone before. Sure I've heard people say I hate you and even I've said "Omg I hate you guys" but I've never ever meant it. Hate is a truly rooted emotion that I've never wanted to experience. I know you're probably thinking you should hate all of them. Jack, Sam, Johnson, Cam but I don't know I just can't...
I was so into my thoughts that I didn't even feel Justin behind me until he wrapped his arm around my waist and rested his chin on my shoulder.
"What are you thinking about?" He said while pulling me closer. I closed my eyes and relaxed into him. I felt good when I was with Jack it was like a safe good, but Justin was a comfortable good. He was so warm and caring and I just melted into his touch. I don't even let my mind get to me anymore...after all it had been two months...
"Did you just get here?"
"Yeah it was Kendall's birthday, you should have came with me you know she loves you."
"Mm not really in a partying mood."
"Still thinking about him?"
I didn't want to tell Justin that I did every time I closed my eyes. That I couldn't even sleep in my bed because every time my head hit the pillow I could imagine them making love there? That I threw out all my black clothes because it only reminded me of my humiliation. That I changed my number and the minute I did I started missing them. After that one day they all left me alone and that night I went back to Justin's. We talked it out some more and I once again cried on his shoulder. We had been getting closer and closer and I was slowly but surely coming into Justin's world and half of me wanted to stay. I met all of Justin's friends and they were all so cool. Hailey, Kendall, Fredo, and everyone said that they watched my vines and thought I was an amazing singer.
Never in a million years would I have thought that I would be chilling with Justin Bieber and his friends. Never would I have thought that we would be great friends? I had a lot on my mind lately but the constant battle was Jack or Justin?
If I wasn't stupid I'd pick Justin and he'd give me his heart and the world...but I was stupid...
"Have you ever hated someone?" I asked and turned around to face him. He placed his hands on the balcony railing and looked off to the side deep in thought. I looked at his face. Hazel eyes, perfect tan skin, JAWLINE, and his lips...I couldn't help it...
"I should huh? Everyone that's called me gay or told me to go and kill myself but I just can't. I wouldn't want that hate to accidentally be taken out on my fans. I'd never forgive myself." He said while looking into my eyes.
I felt my heart in my throat. What was this feeling? I never got nervous around Justin or felt like whatever this was. I smiled and looked down. Justin wrapped his arms around my shoulders and gave me a hug. His hugs were nice and could make me feel better in an instant.
"Let's go out tomorrow?"
"In public?"
"You'll be fine, Hailey goes out with me all the time, we're just going out to lunch beautiful it'll help you feel better."
"Justin you don't have too do thi-"
"I want too," he whispered and softly kissing my cheek. It felt as soft as a butterfly's flutter...love?...nah...I think...
I woke up early and slowly got out the bed and left a note for Justin telling him that I was going home to get changed and would meet him for lunch later. I was driving down the road when the radio started playing a song and immediately recognized Johnson and Nate's voices. The song was really good and I instantly started to miss them again.
"No! No!"I kept telling myself.
I got out the car and hurried along so I could shower and when stepped in it was once again...cold. I rounded the corner and saw Matt?
"What is with you boys and the freezing cold!" I mumbled and turned my thermostat up to 75.
"It's hot outside babe!"
"What do you want Matt?"
Matt was the only one that I wasn't mad at. When all this stuff happened he was in VA until the night of the Roast. But I could never be mad at Matt.
"Boys told me that you're hanging with Justin now?"
"And?"
"You're not hanging with us anymore?"
"Anndd?"
"Look I'm not here to tell you who you can and can't hang with just be careful."
"Oh great you too Matt! Oh gosh I'll listen please tell me what is so wrong with the guy who's been helping me through all the bullshit that's happened the past 2 months?"
"It's Justin loves HARD...and he acts different when he gets a girlfriend or someone he likes.."
"Well Matty boy Twitter update I'm not dating Justin, we are just friends."
"Just be careful okay? You don't know what you're getting into..."
Matt walked over and kissed my forehead before leaving. What?
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I should have known going out to lunch with Justin wasn't going to be a quick run to Chipotle. Nope it was to this fancy restaurant in Beverly Hills. The minute I stepped out the car I was bombarded by cameras. This was nothing like the Roast. The cameras were behind a rope and couldn't touch you. But these were different. They were yelling and flashing at least 10 pictures every 10 seconds. They asked so many questions and gave so many compliments it was honestly a blur. Is this what Justin had to go through?
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah that was insane but I'm good lets go eat."
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Jack POV
Going public had to be one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. It's not like high school where you just hold hands in the hallway and everybody knows and you go on with life. No everybody was talking about it. Everyone was still talking about it and some people liked it and some people didn't but I had to go on with life.
The boys were slowly starting to talk to me after all the shit that happened. At first for about three weeks they didn't say anything to me after we left Y/N's house.
I knew Y/N hated me. I knew that if the Purge was real I'd be the first one she'd come after. No she'd go for Madison and then me. I knew she never wanted to see me again, talk to me again, or even look at me. I wish she would understand though. I did what I did for a reason and that reason was I didn't love her like I loved Madison call me crazy but that's how I feel. I tried calling her but she never picked up the phone. I thought it was just me but the guys said she wasn't picking up their advances either. I'm guessing she changed her number. The boys hated me for this. She threw us all out of her life and it would be a lie to say we didn't miss her.
I'll even admit that I missed her. She was the girl I went to when I had a lot on my mind or whenever I had problems with Madison I went to her but now she wasn't there. I watched the Pre- Roast interviews and saw her interview. I didn't expect them to ask her those questions but then again I didn't expect her to answer that way either.
She still cared...
I took my phone out and went to Twitter. I had to talk to her at least try and get her to understand. I typed in her name and the first thing that popped up was Y/N and Justin. Her Twitter name was right underneath and I tried to just click her name but my curiosity got the best of me. All these pictures showed of them going out to lunch and him holding her hand and them laughing. Paparazzi was everywhere and the hashtag #JustinsNewGirl was worldwide trending.
"That slut!" Madison screamed while storming into my room.
"What the hell does he even see in her?!"
I didn't want Y/N to be miserable but I sure as hell didn't want her to be with him. Anyone else but not fucking him, I don't care how happy he makes her.
"We have to do something Jack!"
"I agree"
"Really?"
"Yeah babe come one let's take a picture..."
"Okay but one picture isn't going to change anything Jack?"
"I know but it's a start baby."
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Y/N POV
"Okay don't be mad."
"Why would I be mad?"
Justin interlaced our fingers as he drove. He licked his lips and kept his eyes on the road.
"I booked you studio time at Columbia Records."
"Justin!"
It wasn't that I wasn't grateful for it but Columbia Records signed artists such as Beyonce and studio time there was $1000 an hour?!
"I'm paying you back the minute I-"
"What the hell no you're not?! I want to do this for you!"
"Why?"
Justin pulled into the lot and turned off the car looking at me.
"Because I believe in you and your dreams and you are going to be the next big thing. I promise"
We walked through the building and it was exactly like I dreamed it would be. The studio was gorgeous and I could already see myself recording songs in the booth. I squealed and turned around to hug Justin. When he picked me up I looked across the hall in the next room to see Jack, Johnson, Nate and Sammy....

✨See you Friday 😉✨

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