Overdue - Jack Gilinsky imagine -

Overdue part 23

Jack POV

I got up and grabbed my car keys, running out the house and driving to Madison's. I was going to save Y/N from making the biggest mistake of her life. He was going to ruin her. I could tolerate him dating her but marrying her?! At 21?! What the hell is wrong with him! Who wants to get married when you're 21? You just started living your life. I bet all he wanted to do was get her pregnant.

I pulled up to Madison's house and walked in to see her on the couch in her living room watching TV. I grabbed the remote shutting it off and started to pace the room.

"What is it now Jack?" She said while sighing and running fingers through her hair.

"We have to stop this wedding!"

"What?"

"We can NOT let Justin marry Y/N! We have to stop it somehow!"

"And what do you suppose we do Jack? Justin loves her! He'd die for her we can't change that! Why do you care so much?"

"You hate her! Now you care about her relationship?! What happened to ruining the bitch?"

"I do hate her! But I'm tired of every sentence that comes out of your mouth is something about her. Every time we go to hang out with the guys you always ask about her! Why are you so obsessed with her?!"

"She's my best friend! What's wrong with wanting to spend time with her!"

"You always spend time together! You always think about her!"

"No I don't! I just started hanging with her! You do remember that whole 9 MONTHS OF HER IGNORING ME!"

"What were you doing when I was in New York? You were with her I bet!"

"You were with him!"

"He's my boss! I was doing business and what were you doing?

"I was talking to my best friend who hated me!"

"You're saying this like its my fault," Madison said while rolling her eyes and walking into the kitchen filling a glass with water.

"It's your fault too! Who did I cheat on her with!"

"You never loved her the way you love me Jack! You didn't cheat on her you told her the truth!"

"She didn't deserve what I did to her," I whispered.

"Look Jack! Y/N and Justin are getting married get over it!"

"I CAN'T!"

"WHY?!"

"I CAN'T LET HER MARRY HIM! SHE'S NOT SUPPOSED TO MARRY HIM! HE WAS NEVER SUPPOSED TO BE IN HER LIFE!"

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!"

"HE CAN'T HAVE HER!"

"WHY NOT JACK?!"

"BECAUSE IM SUPPOSED TO HAVE HER! I LOVE HER!"

Madison's eyes widened as she dropped her water, the glass crashing to the ground and she just stared at me. I kept my eyes on her to see if she'd do anything. I watched her breathing go from ragged to shallow, and her eyes watered but I could see she was trying to hide it. She bit her lip and ran up the steps to her room.

In a perfect world, I should have ran up to her room banging in the door begging for her forgiveness but this wasn't a perfect world. It was a shitty world and I was still in a nightmare that I'm pretty sure I just made worse. I just told my girlfriend that I was in love with my ex-girlfriend. I guess the saying "You realize the good thing when it's gone" was actually true. Had I loved Y/N for this long? I always thought of her as a sister...never as a lover but I guess when she wasn't in my life anymore my heart longed for her. It longed to see her face, and hear her laugh, and to feel the light she gave to my life.

When she went to Justin I'll admit I was jealous. I was jealous that she found someone to confide into and that person wasn't me. I was jealous that he did all the things I couldn't do. I was jealous that he was her shoulder to cry on and he became her diary when those were my jobs. I know I fucked up in the past but I didn't expect her to replace me. I didn't replace her. I know your girlfriend is supposed to be your best friend but I never gave Madison that title....

I swept up the broken glass on Madison's floor and got in my car driving back to my house. This time I decided to take the highway where we had that fight over a year ago. When I thought it over I really messed up everything and I thought about how everything would be different if I listened to Y/N in the beginning when she didn't talk to Madison and had an obvious disdain for her.

I wonder would Y/N be my girlfriend and we would be celebrating our 1 year anniversary. I wonder if I would have given her a ring. Not to marry her but like a promise ring. To show her that I loved her and I would never do anything to hurt her and I would never let her go. I wondered so many wonderful things that only involved me and her, but then I thought about everything she gained when she had absolutely nothing to do with me.

She wrote an album and it won a Grammy. She gained respect from many producers and songwriters. She got a record deal. She got new friends. She got a bigger fan base. She was getting a International Headliners' Tour. She gained all this good without me....and she was happy...Would she be happy if she was still a Viner trying to make it? Would she have broken up with me to be with Justin? That wouldn't have changed. He still would have been in love with her and she still would have been a big fan of his and we still would have went to his birthday roast....

I pulled over to where we fought and just sat there. My mind was my enemy right now, and all these thoughts were slowly putting me to sleep.

Madison POV

"It's always been her...always been fucking her..."

As I brushed my hair I noticed huge clumps of it in my brush.

"MOM!"

She came running in my room and I showed her the brush and she said it was stress because my little brother didn't put anything in my shampoo. I collapsed in her arms crying my eyes out. It just wasn't fair.

"What's wrong sweetie?"

"Jack doesn't love me anymore."

"WHAT?"

"He loves her. He loves Y/N. You know that vine girl who won a Grammy he loves her. He told me to my face. He said he loved her to my face!"

She hugged me tighter but that wasn't making my pain go away. I have a heart and I have feelings as well. Sure I've done things but that doesn't mean I'm not a person...

"Honey maybe it's for the best?"

"How mom? I love him. He is supposed to love me. I've been dealing with all the hate and death threats from his fans for going on a year?! He just throws that all away for her?!!!"

"People fall in love in mysterious ways...we can't help that love."

"I can't just give up mom! He's my boyfriend!"

"Well if I were you and I loved my boyfriend that much then I would take care of the problem." She kissed my forehead and walked out of my room. I laid down and just stared at the ceiling. My brain started turning and the pieces of the puzzle started coming together. The smirk on my face grew slicker and I rose from my bed drying my tears and reapplying my eyeliner and mascara.

I looked down at my phone to see the picture of Jack and I on my lock screen. I gently kissed my screen before dialing the number and walking out the house to the car, telling my driver where I needed to go.

"I'm doing this for us," I whispered to my lock screen.

"I'm going to give you what you want Jack. You don't want her to be happy then I'll make that happen..."