Overdue - Jack Gilinsky imagine -

Overdue part 18

Previously on Overdue
"I'm ready..."
"For what?"
"To talk"
He ordered a pizza and I got a bowl of grapes, and the TV was on something but we weren't paying attention to it. Just sitting next to each other staring at an irrelevant screen. I bet our minds were at war with each other. Talk you idiot...say something it's been an hour....
I thought I was ready for this moment but apparently I wasn't. I guess I wasn't ready to hear the truth. Why he did what he did to me? I guess I liked the life I was living right now, and I loved the ignorance of not knowing why....
"Jack if you're not ready to talk I understand."
"I don't know what to say..."
"You can start at the middle because I already know the beginning," I mumbled as I plucked two grapes in my mouth and turned towards him. He sighed and ruffled his hair before putting back on his hat. Jack was extremely nervous I could tell. I mastered a poker face but he was shaking, lip biting, and breathing shallowly...maybe he'd pass out.
I got tired of waiting,"Okay I'm going to take a nap."
"Wait Y/N!"
I sat back down with my arms crossed over my chest and looking at Jack hard. This was now becoming a complete waste of my mind and my patience was wearing thin.
"Okay I'm not talking to you if you're going to have an attitude."
"I'm sorry...Were you still dating her when you were sleeping with me?"
"Not for about two weeks..."
"Oh..."
"Were you seeing Justin?"
I snapped my head towards Jack furrowing my eyebrows,"Um no...you see I'm actually faithful in my relationships."
"Y/N...to say that I didn't mean to hurt you would be a lie. I knew that being with Madison would hurt you. I knew that you'd be pissed but I didn't know how to tell you that I didn't love you like I loved her. If you were in the same situation would you be able to look me in the face and tell me you didn't love me," he whispered while tears welled in his eyes.
"You felt so conflicted and you chose hurting me as the best decision?" I said while looking away and letting tears stream down my face.
"Hurting you was the only option..."
"Do you hear yourself?! How is this not crazy to you! Hurting you was the only option?? How about loving me was the only option! How about the three months that I gave you were the only option! How about letting the small thought that I was in love with you cross through your dumbass mind! How can you not see that this is entirely your fault!"
"It is! I'm sorry!"
"I'm trying so hard to understand you Jack but I can't! I can't understand why!" I said while my voice cracked.
We both cried on the couches. We weren't embarrassed by the chokes, breathes or utter sadness that came from us both. This pain was worse than before. Jack admitted to hurting me. After all these months I gave him the benefit of the doubt and thought that maybe Madison came onto him and he lost his self control, but he actually let the thoughts of hurting me calculate in his mind.
"Okay," I breathed out and wiped under my eyes."We obviously don't know each other..."
"So what should we do?"
"Let's start over...I'm Y/N," I said while extending my hand out.
"Jack."
"Nice to meet you Jack...."

To start from crying and ending with laughing was so refreshing. I learned a lot about Jack that I apparently didn't know. At first we weren't into it at all but now we were laughing and making fun of each other..playfully of course!
"Can I tell you something?" Jack asked while putting his SnapBack on my head.
"What's up?" Jack grabbed my hands and made me face him and I could tell this was serious then he started smiling.
"I know you'll never like her. You'll never be friends with her but she makes me happy. Waking up next to her is amazing. When I hear her voice it's like angels singing and just holding her hand or having her in my arms I feel...complete."
I nodded my head and returned the smile that Jack gave me,"I understand...that's how Justin makes me feel Jack. I know you'll never like him, but he makes me feel on top of the world. He makes me feel like I'm the only one for him and he's the only one for me. Whenever he pops into my head I just start smiling so hard. So hard that my cheeks hurt and I just stuff my head in my jacket because of the blush that creeps onto my cheeks. Jack...if Madison makes you feel like that then I'm happy for you...and I approve."
"Really babygirl?"
"Really."
"I can't believe I'm saying this but if Justin makes you happy then that's all that's important to me, but if he does anything to you then I'm kicking his ass."
"Oh don't worry Jack I'm sure if he starts sleeping with his ex behind my back then I'll just call you, you guys would have so much in common," I replied while smirking and Jack put his arm around me and messed up my hair.
"Jaaaack stop!!"
"So Justin is going to be gone for the whole weekend?
"Yep! Juju's not gonna be back till Monday morning why?"
"Then I think we should hang out!"
"Are you sure? I wouldn't want her to get upset and thinking I'm trying to steal her man."
"Y/N I want us back. I want us to have that relationship, so it's just me and you. No Madison, no him, no nothing."
"Well if we are going to do this then we can't leave, because the paps would kill to get a picture of Grammy Award winning artist hanging with her cheating ex boyfriend like we've been best friends forever."
"We're not best friends?" Jack said his face dropping a bit.
"One step at a time Jackie...now give me a slice of your pizza!!"
"NO! You got your healthy shit and I actually got food!"
Jack got up and started running with his pizza with me running after him....This was going to be a long weekend...