Throughout the Years Ace x Reader (Re-write)

Rightfully so

Y/n's pov

"Ace..?"

Ace and Sonya...Was this real? After what he said, after what he did? I ran straight to my room, was it all just nothing? 

Ace barged into my room, "Dollface, It's not what it seems!" I began to get pissed off hearing him trying to explain, "Don't call me 'dollface'! Not after what just happened!" I paced around the room, trying to contain my anger. "Sonya and I aren't doing anything! She came in and kissed me!" I got close to him and looked him in the eyes. There stood a moment of silence between the two of us. We both knew that we would break each other's hearts. I think we both wondered during that silence why we even tried in the first place. Even if we said, "I love you" that's all that was, that little phrase that's supposed to have an impact, in reality, is just words. Puny words which we are supposed to say to show affection, but it's nothing, those words mean nothing without the action to prove the statement. So, why should I believe that he loves me if he goes off and does this? "I knew it was too good to be true." I looked down at the floor, I began to tear up. 

"I was right to love Murdoc more than you."

"You don't mean that..."

I grabbed the suitcase I had packed to find Noodle and without another word, I looked at Ace and left.

Even after what he did, I felt bad for what I said, but I felt even guiltier knowing that those words had a truth to them. I loved both Ace and Murdoc, but I loved one more and I knew he loved me. I didn't want to lose somebody I loved because I was scared. I knew that I needed to take a risk and be with him. Once he gets out of jail, I'm going to make it right, I'm going to tell him how I feel. 

I thought about what I was going to say to Murdoc once he was out, but I couldn't get my mind off of Ace. I tried to distract myself by thinking about Murdoc, but Ace had taken over my mind. I started to think about what he'd done for me, the things he said. How he always complimented me when he could tell I was sad. How he kissed me while we were falling asleep. I missed the way he'd put his hand on my hip when he'd hold me and tell me that things were going to be okay. 

I got to the hotel and got the key to my room. I laid down on the bed and just sat there, thinking. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I began to sob and put my hands on my face. "If I love Murdoc more, why do you make me feel so sad." Maybe he would be happier with Sonya, that's why he cheated. He knew he'd be happier with her than with me. I sighed "That doesn't make me feel any better," 

"Maybe I should just sleep it off"