I Wish I Could Hold Your Hand Forever...- By Janescripter ✓

Chapter 6

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"Khabardar jo aaj ke baad aapne maarne ki baat ki hai toh...", Hassena said in broken voice. Tears rolled down their cheeks.

They immediately wiped out each other's tears. He realises what he had done and backed off. Awkwardly, he went and sat on his bed. Hassena was Confused.

"Aapko abhi jakar so jana chahiye Hassena ji. Kafi raat ho gayi hai...", Anubhav said avoiding eye contact.

Hassena directly went and sat beside him.

"Anubhav sir, aaj toh hume aapne aapne dilon ko halka karna hi padega. Jab Tak hum aapni inn feelings ko aapne andar rakhenge na tab tak hume taklif hoti hi rahegi.", Hassena said and kept her hand on his shoulders.

Anubhav looked at her with her eyes filled with love. Hassena just nodded her head.

"Hassena ji, aapko pata hai jab hum IB mein bharti hue the lagbhag 13-14 saal ho gaye uss baat ko lekin aaj bhi yaad hai ki hum kitne khush the, lekin Maa thodi dukhi thi..."

"Kyu?"

"Kyuki IB mein hone ke karan hum unke saath nai reh sakte the. Unhe samay nahi de payenge. Jab hume iss baat ka ehsaas hua tab hume Maa ke liye bohot dukh hua Hassena ji. Jabse Baba gaye hai tab  se unki saari khushi hamare andar basti hai... Unke hriday mein ek bhay tha hume khoone ka.... Humne aapni Maa ko pal pal baba ki yaadon mein tadapte dekha hai Hassena ji. Uss vakt hamara hriday bhi tuta hai... Tabhi humne nishchay kar liye ki hum kabhi vivah nahi karenge. Hum kabhi bhi kisi nirdosh stree ko apne pati ke pyaar ke liye tadapte hue nahi rakhna chahte the...", Anubhav said and signed.

Hassena could relate this with her mother too. She too had seen her mother craving for her husband's love. It's just horrible for a child to see his/her mother broken.

"Toh? Fir?"

"Fir aap hamare jeevan mein ayi Hassena ji. Hume aapse prem ho gaya. Uss Holi vale din hume aapke samaksh prem prastav isiliye rakha kyuki hum jaante hai ki aap kitni majboot hai andar se, humse bhi adhik. Hum aapni bhavnaon ko aapne andar rakhte rakhte thak chuke the... Hume bhi kisi ki avashyakta thi jo humari baaton ko sune. Kintu hum yeh bhi nahi chahte the ki humare Karan aapko koi bhi samasya ho isiliye hume tay kiya tha ki hum IB chod denge...", Anubhav said and Hassena looked at him shocked.

"Aap hamare liye IB chodne vale the?", Hassena asked still processing.

"Ji! Kyuki uss samay hume aapki avashyakta thi. Desh ki seva toh hum kisi bhi prakar se kar sakte hai kintu hum aapko dukh mein nahi dekh sakte the...", Anubhav said.

Hassena didn't even knew what was she feeling. But one more thing was revolving in her mind that he needed her at that time. She closed her eyes. She was disappointed by herself.

"Humne kya kar diya yeh? Aapko hamari jarurat thi, aur hum aapne aap mein hi uljhe rahe. Kabhi aapko samajhne ki koshish hi nahi ki. Itne selfish kaise ho sakte hum?", Hassena said with broken voice.

Anubhav saw her and realised what he just said. He held her shoulders and made him look at himself.

"Hassena ji, hume maaf kar dijiye, hamare kehna ka tatparya aapko dukh pohocha nahi tha. Hum jaante hai ki aapka jeevan bhi kaam uljhanon aur musibaton bhara nahi tha. Phir bhi aap itni kabil Officer bani... Bhool humse hi hui hai humne aapka dil toda hai...", Anubhav said and Hassena looked at him with teary eyes.

In an instant, she hugged him tightly. He was shocked but hugged her back. He soon realised that she was crying. He was worried, he quickly broke the hug and cupped her face.

"Kya hua hai Hassena ji?"

"Kuch nahi Abbu ki yaad aa gayi hume. Aapne jab kaha na ki aapke baba aapko bohot pehle chod kar chale gaye. Hamare abbu bhi hume aur Ammi ko chod kar chale gaye...", Hassena signed still hugging him. He tightened his hold on her. She too snuggled more into him. They both closed their eyes feeling each other's warmth.

Jise zindagi dhoondh rahi hai
Kya ye woh makaam mera hai
Yahaan chain se bas ruk jaaun
Kyun dil ye mujhe kehta hai
Jazbaat naye se mile hain
Jaane kya asar ye huaa hai
Ik aas mili phir mujhko
Jo qubool kisi ne kiya hai

"Aab Aapki baari hai...", Anubhav said.

Hassena confusingly looked at him sideways without breaking the hug.

"Humne aapne jeevan ke baarein mein bataya aab aapki baari.", Anubhav smiled a little.

Her heart fluttered Looking him smile genuinely after so long. She closed her eyes and rested her cheek on his shoulder.

"Hamari kahani bhi bilkul aap jaisi hi hai. Hamare abbu bhi hume chod kar chale gaye the. Vakt se phele bada hona pada hume. Humne bhi ammi ko roz Abbu ki yaad mein rehna padta hai. Baas fark yeh hai ki aap shaadi nahi karna chahte the aur hum, (chuckled) hum sacche pyar ki talaash kar rahe the. Humne kabhi nahi socha tha ki hume kisi se aaise kisi insaan ko dhund payenge. Lekin..."

"Lekin?"

"Aap hume mil gaye jo humse hamari ummed se sau guna jyada pyaar karte hai...", She broke the hug and smiled with teary eyes.

He wiped her tears and kissed her forehead.

"Aapko sach mein lagta hai hum aapse itna prem karte hai...", Anubhav asked and she nodded.

"Hume sirf lagta nahi hai hume pura yakin hai..."

They both stared at each other for some moments. They were feeling relieved and light after narrating each other's life.

Anubhav's pov

Kitna kuch sehna padta hai bacchon ki jitna maata pita nahi hote. Humne aur Hassena ji ne bhi aapne baba ki kami puri karne ke liye aapna baalpan kho diya. Parantu jab Holi vale din hume Hassena ji ko dekha, bina kisi dukh aur tension ke, khul kar haaste hue tab hamare prem aur badh gaya. Hum chahte hai ki Hassena ji sada ke liye aaise hi khush rahe. Kintu kya yeh sambhav hai? Ho ya na ho kintu hum prayas karenge ki hum unhe sada khush rakhe..."

Anubhav's pov ended

Hassena's pov

Kisne kaha hai ki ek sirf ek aurat ka hi dil tut ta hai. Yaha toh humse jyada Anubhav tute hue hai. Hume aur kuch toh nahi pata par itna Jarur jayaj hai ki Anubhav humse mohabbat karte hai. Aur unke jyada mohobbat humse koi aur nahi kar sakta... Hamari mohobbat ne bohot dukh jhele hai aab aur nahi... Aab hum unse dur nahi jana chahte. Lekin hum jaante hai ki voh Jarur koshish karenge hume aapne aap se dur karne ki agar unki jaan ko khatra ho. Aab hum unhe aapne aap se dur nahi jaane denge. Anubhav hamara voh kinara hai jisne hume pyaar ka asli matlab samjhya hai. Hume hamare na jaante hue bhi sambhala hai... Hum aapne uss kinare ko khoona nahi chahte.

Hassena's pov ended.

Hassena placed her hand on her chest feeling his heartbeats. Anubhav looked at her hand and then at her.

Jaise koi kinaara
Deta ho sahaara
Mujhe wo mila kisi mod par
Koi raat ka taara
Karta ho ujaala
Waise hi roshan kare woh shehar

She slowly leaned in and closed her eyes. He didn't knew why but he too closed his eyes. She slowly bridged the gap between their lips...

-To be continued

Date:- 29th December 2021

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