ೃ⁀➷ᴘꜱʏᴄʜᴏᴘᴀᴛʜ ¬ ᴇɴɢ ᴠᴇʀ

- SEVEN -

Finally I arrived home, I knocked on the door and my mother's surprised face greeted me, I rushed inside so I could hug her, it was one of those hugs you need to stay alive, comforting and full of love. Minutes later we separated and I saw my father behind us, whom I hugged in the same way, I missed them a lot.

As tears continued to fall down our cheeks, we sat down on the living room couch and my mother began to ask what had happened, how come I hadn't called them before, who was to blame, and so on. I understood that they would have a lot of questions, so I told the story from the beginning and they understood the details. They both ended up more than angry about what happened and my father was about to go out looking for Chris to give him what he deserved, but we stopped him. Neither of us wanted me to go back there, so we wouldn't give him any clues as to my whereabouts, although he would surely know that I would be with my parents.

I went to take a bath and change clothes, while my father tidied up my old room and my mother finished cooking. As we were about to sit down to eat, my younger brother, Seungmin, who was at a friend's house, arrived. When he saw me, he was slow to react and ran to hug me. Of his short 7 years, I had barely been able to be there for the first four, since I was studying, working part-time, and then I had left home. I had missed him a lot too, I was missing his childhood, and that hurt.

Now that I had had the chance to escape, I will do my best to be a good son and older brother, so that Seungmin can have that necessary trust with me and be his refuge in those moments when we don't want to worry our parents. I longed to be an example for him. Likewise, I want to make it up to my parents for waiting for me even when they didn't even know if I was still alive.

From now on, I'm going to throw away the Lee Felix I used to be, I'm going to leave it all behind. I'm going to try to bring out the best version of me and I'm going to start over. I'm going to spend enough time with the people I love and focus on being happy doing the things I've always wanted.

I can't deny that I'm curious about how Chris must be doing now, if it was his decision to leave the keys there for me to leave, if maybe he thought about what I needed and that's why he did it. I would love to know all that and have ended the relationship well, but I don't think it's going to happen. If he ever shows up in my life again, I hope it will be when this feeling of pain I have towards him is gone, so that I have the strength to set the record straight and not fall back into the same thing.

Honestly, I just got home a few hours ago, but I already know everything I want to do. I don't know if I'll get to fulfill all my wishes, or if I can heal my pain fast, but what I do know is that I will fight for everything I set my mind to.