My supernatural journal

New Years Eve

My sister woke me up and started talking about Covid and the vaccine and how I needed to get vaccinated to not die. She doesn't understand why I don't trust the vax and she was literally talking so loud, it's like she was trying to ram her thoughts into my head when all I wanted was for her to leave me alone. Then she had the audacity to blame my views on autism and keeps talking about it like being autistic is some disease people can get sick with. I realized no matter how many times I correct her, she won't correct herself before opening her mouth. She never says anything positive about my brain function, just that its "sad", "unfortunate" or even a "tragedy". She's indirectly telling me she'd prefer a sibling who's not autistic. Oh and she indirectly called me a R-word. The fact she told me "you're not a R-word" just proves she thinks I am otherwise there'd be no reason to say it. Even my therapist said it's not okay to use that word. She and my mom are so toxic. Also, I told my sister that if she tries to get me vaccinated then I'm leaving. She's seen my car bugout bag so I'm sure she knows I'm not bluffing. She's afraid of losing me to Covid, well push me to take the shots and I will be "lost" to Covid. Then she can explain to our family that I won't be coming back ever again. I swear, she's gonna be the straw that breaks the camel's back. I can't control being autistic but she sure as hell can learn not to be so mean to me.

-Adri