Diary of a Kpop idol

Chapter 05

August 17

I started the day with my usual morning routine and dressed in boyfriend jeans and a Blue Marble Asymmetrical Mesh long sleeve Crop top, paired with Adidas white and brown chunky shoes and a ponytail. 

By lunchtime, we had toured all three apartments. I told Xingyi that I preferred the largest one, as it had everything I needed, like a gym and other essentials. Taeha, my well-behaved little Pomeranian, made the process even easier. 

The choice was obvious, one apartment lacked space in the master bedroom, and another was too far from the city, despite being close to the SM building. Plus, its contract was too complicated.

Afterward, I headed to the SM building to meet with the agent. We discussed my plans, and I signed the contract. While I was fine with an open-ended contract, Xingyi insisted I sign a five-year deal. That way, I could debut within five years and renew the contract as part of a group. After finalizing everything and setting a date to begin my training, I left the building with Xingyi, but not before greeting Taeyong’s group members.

Next, we made our way to JYP. I still had four months left on my contract there as I didn't end the contract 3 years ago, and JYP asked me to help manage their rookie group during that time. I was appointed as their assistant manager, so on the drive over, I watched their performance videos to prepare. PD JYP said he’d introduce me to them today.

Upon arriving at the JYP building, a staff member guided me inside. I was led into a training room where PD JYP and nine boys stood in a straight line. 

I greeted PD JYP with a little bow, and he motioned for me to stand beside him.

“She will be your assistant manager from today on. Introduce yourself,” he said. I smiled and gave a little bow to the boys.
“Hello, I’m Lee Yeim-Woon, and I’ll be whatever PD said,” I joked, making the boys chuckle.

“Stay! One!” they shouted. 
“Hello, we are Stray Kids.” They each introduced themselves individually, but I already knew two of them. Bang Chan and Han Jisung.

After the introductions, PD JYP gave us some time to get to know each other. I took the opportunity to give them a bit of a lecture.

“Maybe you know, maybe you don’t, but I’ll only be your assistant manager for four months. By the end of the year, I won’t be part of your staff anymore. I’m here to help you, lead you to your first music show win, and help your albums and other creative projects, though not your merch,” I said. They nodded, understanding the situation.

"I’ve watched your journey from the 'Stray Kids' survival show," I said, my gaze steady. "And while there were moments of brilliance, I have to admit… I'm disappointed."

The words hung in the air, tension building as the boys exchanged silent, wide-eyed glances. I paused, giving my words time to settle.

"JYP groups have a reputation and a legacy," I continued, my voice firm but calm. "They’ve always debuted with a clear identity, something powerful and distinct. You don’t just want to be good; you want to stand out. Now, I’m not saying you lack talent; on the contrary, you’re skilled performers. But right now, the music feels… restrained. There's a spark, but it hasn’t fully caught fire. This isn’t just about individual performance, it’s about creating something that leaves an unforgettable impression. Something that makes people think, 'This is Stray Kids.'”

The room was silent. Their initial shock gave way to thoughtful expressions. I could tell they were absorbing my words, processing the implications.