Criminal Minds Prefrences and Imagines

Don't Leave Me [1/-](Prentiss)

Pairing; Emily Prentiss x Female!Reader (she/her pronouns)
Warnings: The literal death of Emily, Crying, Sad sad, angsty kinda.
Length: long
Word count: 2.2k


Summary: R/n found out that Emily died. I thought of this in the middle of class and I thought it would be a good idea to write this instead of focusing on the lecture. : ]🤷🏾‍♀️. There is an age gap but it's really not that bad, compared to what I've seen. It was severe... The reader is in their mid-20s (24) while Emily is in her mid-30s (35) when they meet for the first time. ***March 7th is the estimated date of her death that I came up with. + with a lot of research on this plus intensively watching the episode. Anyways Enjoy!



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March 7th

You picked up the pace as you continued to walk through the cold halls in the hospital. You stayed careful to not shake the car seat in your arms. You made it into the waiting room to see everyone waiting for you. Your eyes swelled up in tears as you placed the baby down in the nearest seat.

'Please tell me she's okay." Aaron came up to you as you began to panic. "She's still in surgery." You began to cry, as Aaron held you close. Everyone was consoling each other.


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March 7th

The waiting room was silent, all aside from the baby sleeping in your arms. The baby began to stir as you continued to rock her. "How old is Lilith?" Penelope asked to ease her mind. "She'll be 5 months in 3 days. She shares a birthday with Emily." You said while shedding a tear. Garcia sadly smiled.

"Can I hold her?" You nodded while wiping away your tear. You nodded as you handed Lilith to Penelope. Lilith reminded you so much of Emily, although you had a surrogate, that baby resembled you so much.

Lilith didn't have a lot of hair but it was soft and curly, but still growing to find its natural curl pattern. Her skin was a beautiful shade of brown, just like yours. Her eyes were a soft dark hazel color, close to a dark brown, just like yours...

It was almost impossible to know if she had any physical and noticeable traits from her father because she took so much after you. Only you and Em knows who the father is. The relationship is mutual, but he still tends to send you money and remained good friends with both of you.

Time still remained slow.

It was at eating you, not know the condition of your wife. "How long has she been in there." You asked out loud for anyone to answer. "We're not sure. It seems like forever." Derek replies quietly.

Lilith was playing with her toys silently, occasionally making small gibberish noises but soon after that she got tired and went back to sleep and you placed her back in her car seat with her blanket.

You sighed, "I'm going to go and get some water." You got up and grabbed your wallet and made your way towards a vending machine.
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"Oh come on!" You said while hitting the vending machine. You kicked the vending machine once more before giving up. You let out a frustrated huff. Every little thing was so very easy to bother you and it was starting to make you fed up. "Fuck!" You shouted while giving up.

In the corner of your eye, you saw Aaron approach you. "Are you all right?" "No Aaron." You snapped at him while turning away from him and crossing your arms.

"I know that is hitting you harder than the rest of us, but I want you to understand that you are not alone. We all want to make sure that you and Lilith are all right." Aaron said empathetically. No matter how hard you tried to calm yourself from the current situation, it was enviable for your tears to spill.

"How could this happen? I've known her for as long as I've had this job and we joined at the same time. She took me out on dates and within those first couple of months of dating when we both got here, she asked me to be her girlfriend. 2 years of that, she asked me to marry her." You told him with a shaky voice.

Aaron's face was sympathetic, he was understanding because he noticed the connection between the both of you when Emily

transferred in, a week after you.

"She didn't say anything to you, to protect you. Doyle would have hurt the team, or even worst, you."Aaron stated protectively. "I know.."

"Do you know how happy I was? I said yes as soon as she looked at me when she was kneeling on the ground. I knew she was the one once we started dating. 2 years later of us being married, she asked me if I wanted to start a family with her." You looked at Aaron with tender eyes as they began to water.

"It took us a couple of months of preparation and you know last year the donor and I got pregnant. She was so happy and always protective once I went on maternity leave. The day I went into labor was the most painful but I was so elated because I had the baby on her birthday. My two favorite people in the world. She means so much to me Aaron and I rather be dead than see her light burn out. No matter what happens," you gently grabbed Aaron's hand while your tears flowed.

"You have to promise me that you'll watch over me. I don't know what I'm going to do without her.." You pleaded. Aaron hesitated before nodding. You hugged him softly before letting go. Aaron gave the vending machine one last hit. You heard the noise of the water bottle dropping down to the machine.

He grabbed it and handed it to you. You muttered a soft thank you as you made your way towards the waiting room. You saw JJ enter the waiting room. "How is she?" You asked JJ with concern.

Her face frowned as she fell silent. Your heart dropped as the pace began to go faster. "She never made it off the table." Jennifer said with glossy eyes. "What..." Your water bottle dropped out of your hand, dropping onto the ground.

"NO! Please, she can be gone. Please tell me this isn't real." You began to hyperventilate. You grabbed onto your chest as your body began to get hot as tears spilled. You let out loud plead for Emily to come back.

Spencer rushed out of the room. "Spence," JJ grabbed his arm. "I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye." He said in a sad tone before advancing his way out of the hospital.

You were heartbroken. How could she leave you so early? You still had so much time to live your life with her. Now that she's gone, what are you going to do now?

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You shed a tear as you watched your wife's casket sink into the ground. "I love you so much." You whispered as you placed a kiss on a rose. You placed the rose onto her casket.

Garcia held onto Lilith while you came back to stand next to the crowd. Everyone took their chance to grieve, but not as hard as you did. As soon as the funeral service ended, everyone send their condolences to you.

Penelope came up to you and gave you a tight hug. "You know that if you need anything you can call me, text me, or hell. come over if you need to. It doesn't matter the hour of the day or night. I'm here if you need anything." She whispered in your ear while letting go of the hug. "Thank you." you replied softly.

"I'm so sorry R/n, I truly am." Jennifer apologized while holding your hands. You gave her a weak smile. "I know. All I want from you is to catch the bastard that put my wife in this grave." You looked at her with sad eyes.

"Can you promise me that?"

JJ looked at you and nodded. "I'll try my best." She gave you one last hug before walking away. Aaron came up to you. "Are you ready to go?" He asked softly. You looked over at her casket one last time before looking at Aaron again and giving him a nod.

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Lilith didn't handle this whole situation too well. Within the first month of Emily being gone, she became agitated a lot and it was harder for her to go to sleep at night, which kept you both awake.

Emily was always th one to go into her room to calm her down, which helped a lot for you.

Emily didn't mind being woken up at odd hours to calm the baby down. Since her job could call at any moment for her to come in, she gave you the courtesy of having more sleep since you were taking care of Lilith during your maternity leave.

Lilith had no idea why she was seeing you more often than Emily while she screamed for her mama. But of course, she wouldn't understand why.

Your eyes jolted open while hearing a whining noise from the baby monitor. Emily stirred in her sleep as she got up.

"Don't worry, I got this." She placed a kiss on your lips while heading to Lilith's room. "Hey, hey. Why are you crying little one? Mama's here. Yeah, it's okay. I'm here." You heard Emily say on the baby monitor.

You smiled at her gentle cooing at Lilith as she almost immediately stopped crying. Lilith whined. "No no, don't cry. It's okay, Mama's here." A couple of moments later you could hear Emily cry out in disgust.

"Oh gosh. No wonder you were crying, you pooped. Don't worry, I'll help you out. I would cry too if I was sitting in my poop. Thanks for waking me up kid."

You giggle at her short response. Soon after you could hear Emily singing a soft lullaby to Lilith as you later heard snoring from her. "Goodnight little lady. Mama loves you very much."

Some time later, you heard the water running in the bathroom. Emily finished up in the bathroom and got back in bed and cuddle with you.

"I didn't know you could play the mom role so well Em." You turned toward her to see her completely knocked out. You smiled and placed a light kiss on her lips while falling back to sleep.

The sleepless nights of Lilith crying you put on both of your coats and grabbed a light duffle bag of both of your stuff and drove over to her.

"I'm sorry it's late. Lilith couldn't sleep and I couldn't either." Penelope smiled as she greeted you while helping you with our bag. "No no, it's fine, I told you that you can come at whatever time you want. I don't mind. I just want to help."

You gave her a week smile as you entered the small Garica-themed apartment.

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Penelope came over to you and handled the now warm bottle.

"I think she noticed that Emily is gone because now, she gets more agitated at not towards the night time, and it makes it harder for her to stay asleep. Of course, that does not help for both of us slightly being sleep deprived. But lucky I can get her to sleep through her naps."

You said while nursing the bottle into the now sleeping baby. "At least she's sleeping. It would be completely different if she doesn't go to sleep at all." Penelope said while taking a sip of her warm tea and sitting next to you on her bed.

"I'm curious by what you mean by 'her noticing Emily is gone.' " Penelope questioned. You gave her a pained smile. "When I first got on maternity leave, Emily and I vowed that she would never let me lose sleep. So, she would take care of Lilith if she was crying through the night. She would be the one to calm her down."

Penelope returned the same pained expression. "She would sing her little lullabies and rock her to sleep. Now, every time she cries as I night, I wake up to an empty bed. She used to say 'I got it and calm Lilith down.' I try hard not to cry everything I sing that same lullaby Emily used to sing Lilith to sleep."

You sighed as a tear spilled down your face. You took the empty bottle out of Lilith's mouth and raised her over your shoulder and burped her. Once she let out a soft burp you placed her down in the middle of Penelope's bed, between the both of you.

Penelope got up from her side of the bed and came to you and gave you a tight hug. "Every day I think of a bigger, brighter, and better world. A world erased of all the ugliness and replaced with all the pure things in life. I have no idea what type of pain you must be going through. Emily was like a sister to me. She was your wife. She was loved."

She let go with tears spilling. "One thing I know for sure is that the more you live, the harder it gets and I rather live through the harshness of the world to see the brighter light ahead of me. You can make it through this hard time and I know it. Someone has to be there for Lilith's first day of school. You can not give up on me, so help me god I will kill you myself if you give up right now."

You laughed lightly at her playful threat. Penelope placed her hands on your face and wiped the tears away. "Emily would be so proud to see how strong you will become from this. I know she loves you very much, the whole squad saw the overflowing amount of love she put into being with you. Don't forget that."

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