"I don't think you understand how frustrated I am...You think I'm trying to get your attention by hurting myself? Really? I just stopped crying because the ring you gave me is so loose on my finger it might fall off at any second. What if I lose it? I don't want to lose it.
I've been acting like I don't know that you're not staying out in your office to work late but to fuck your assistant. I'm trying my hardest, I can't let you go but I want to. I want to leave you, I want to hurt you as much as you're hurting me.
I received a call from the doctor yesterday and he said I must go tomorrow first thing in the morning because the results came back from the lab and wants to discuss some things with me. I'm a little scared. What if I'm sick?
Would you care or would you think I'm doing this for attention?
Love, Lily."
