"I've been trying to figure out how to start this letter without crumpling it and throwing it in the trash. I am so mad at you. So mad you have no idea the strength I've managed to bring from within me to not yell at you because I'm already so tired. It's not even a normal tired, it's worse than that and it's not only about our current situation but just...for months I've felt like my body is giving up. I'm not as energetic as I used to be, I'm actually starting to worry but my therapist says that it might be because of how emotionally exhausting it is to deal with my family issues and the constant fear I have of losing you...it's safe to say that us arguing doesn't do me any good.
I feel like I'm losing grip on you, on us, on what we were before our issues...please don't leave me Alex. I wish you could tell me if I'm doing something wrong.
Yours forever and ever, Lily."
