"Alex...how long has it been? I guess I forgot to write altogether.
I lost a total of 31 or so pounds in the last few months...I'm trying to get better but I never thought it'd be so painful. Fever, fainting, bruises that take forever to go away, fatigue...I have no one by my side, I've isolated myself to the point where the only one I can trust is my doctor.
Would you be mad if I told you we slept together while you were on your business trip? He treats me so well I guess my body and mind were craving comfort in this difficult time.
He didn't complain that I looked like a sack of bones, he rather gave me hope and made me feel comfortable. He's patient and feeds me, he doesn't force me to eat and his company has been so important to me. Is that how it feels to be with a guy 10 years older than you? My friends and I always joked about it but it's actually not that bad. Now we're even, right?
I can't tell you anything yet, I can't bring myself to say it out loud. You're still so busy, the end of the year is coming and you're swarmed with meetings so I hope she's there to help you relieve some stress since I haven't been able to give you anything other than headaches.
Yours as always, Lily."
