Just Two Boys - Jaspar - boyxboy

Chapter 27 - Don't Cry (craft)

-Caspar POV-

I check the list once again. My eyes land on The Spongebob Movie. I nod to myself.

I put on my best seagull voice as I say

"Hey Joe! How's it going, Joe?" He laughs out loud at my ridiculous impression.

"Haha! Caspar what's that, a seagull?"

"Yeah!" I shout, pleased that he knew. I frown slightly, though, because he hasn't remembered yet. I'll just have to push a bit further.

But I'm playing at a difficult game. If I push too far, he may be overwhelmed and never remember again. If I don't push enough, he may never remember.

I choose my words delicately.

"Do you... do seagulls ring any bells?" He gives me a confused look, then shakes his head. He looks away from me.

I watch his face carefully, and see the telltale signs of him trying not to cry. First, he looks around at everything and everything, trying to distract himself.

Next, he blinks rapidly. Trying to will the tears away. By this point, I've started to walk towards him.

By the time he presses his lips against one another, I'm right there next to him. I try to hold his hand, but he pulls away.

"S-sorry. I-it's just not... not natural." I fight back my own tears, trying to remind myself to focus on Joe. His happiness is much more important than mine.

"Joe, b-" I stop myself. I don't want to 'weird him out.'

"Joe, why are you crying?" He stares at me. He first tries to deny it, but eventually gives up in utter awe.

"I-I'm not... I... how did you...? What?" I smile slightly.

"I know you, Joe. I know your body language. You are subtle about crying, and the average person wouldn't have known. But I... I know you, Joe." He turns red, but his lips are still pursed. Soon enough, I see a tear slide down his cheek. Followed by several more.

"Now Joe, tell me. Why are you crying?" He takes a minute to gather his composure, as usual.

"I- I just... What if I don't remember, Caspar?" He grabs my arm and stares me in the eye. "What if all my memories... are lost forever?" His voice cracks at the last word. I do my best to comfort him, though I have never been good at advice.

"Joe, I promise you, you will remember. We will work through this together." I modify my words at his slight reconciliation. "You, me, Zoë, and Cat." He relaxes a bit. My heart breaks even more.

He's ripping at the seams of my heart. Each small gesture, such as that, tears each thread, one by one. It's funny, how the man I love unconditionally and helped fix my heart; is the one who is breaking it all over again.

I see more tears wet Joe's face. Seeing the love of your life cry has got to be one of the worst things in the world.

"Joe... Don't cry." God, I suck at advice. But then, he responds with something I did not expect.

"Craft." I just stare at him. DanandPhilCRAFTS was one of the things on the list. And he remembered, without even a trigger. Or maybe I did give a trigger.

"Don't cry..."

"Joe!" I say, shocked. He gives me a confused, yet amused look.

"What?"

"You..." I didn't want to say too much, I needed to be sure that didn't just randomly pop out of nowhere. I choose my words delicately, ending up just repeating what has already been said.

"Don't cry, craft?" He lets out a small giggle.

"Are you the one with memory loss now? DanandPhilCRAFTS! Squareflakes!" I smile at his remembrance.

"Yeah, yeah, I know! I just wanted to make sure you remembered."

Just then, we hear a knock at the door.

"Come in!" We yell simultaneously. We share a smile at who walks through the door.

"Well speak of the devil."

-----A/N-----

Oh my gosh I suck at updating so bad. This is not fair to you guys because this is still short af!!

Ugh

Tbh I think I'm gonna end this soon. I enjoy writing one shots and this is just becoming a little stressful

But im on april break so I'll hopefully be updating more

Well anywho the QOTD is

Whats your favourite one shot of mine? And if you havent read them what are you doing with your life.

AOTD: one in my drafts called Soulmates... ;)

Love you❤️

-Rebecca xxo