BIANCA'S POV
" Ahh tita ako na lang po muna bahala sa mga bisita,Pahinga muna po kayo " i heard Ashtine said to My mom
Its been three days since my Dad died,at hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin tanggap
Ayokong tanggapin....How can I? Kung hindi man lang ako nabigyan ng pagkakataong magpaalam sa kanya,o kahit mayakap man lang sa huling oras na meron siya
Ang sakit,ang hirap...Hindi ko magawang umiyak pero deep inside sobrang durog na 'ko
I wanna be strong,For Mami....Pero hindi ko magawa...Sobrang gulong gulo ako,Ang sakit sakit
Considering wala din ngayon sa tabi ko yong taong kailangan na kailangan ko...
Parang buong mundo kalaban ko kapag wala siya sa tabi ko,lahat parang ang bigat,lahat magulo,lahat negatibo,pakiramdam ko talo ako kapag hindi siya yong kasama ko
Meng...asan ka na ba kase...kailangan kita
" Bianca "
Im so lost in my thoughts so i didn't notice that someone is calling my name
" Bianca " this time its more loud but i still can't bring myself to look back
" Hey Bianca,kanina pa kita tinatawag" she sat beside me,and that's when i realized it's Ashtine
I look at her with no emotions in my face,And slowly gave her a smile....obviously a fake one
" Gutom ka ba?Gusto mo kumain?" She asked
I simply shook my head
Hindi ko alam pero parang namamanhid katawan ko,im not hungry nor sleepy
But they said it's visible on my physical appearance,the tiredness,pain,hunger and all
" Hindi ka pa kumakain ng maayos simula nong isang araw B,Hindi okay tong ginagawa mo sa sarili mo...Tito wont like it " she said firmly but gently
Pero parang wala akong naririnig,Hindi ko sila pinapakinggan,pasok sa tenga labas sa kabila,ganon yong nangyayare,pati si Mami hindi ko na rin pinapakinggan
I know she needs me,And i need her....but i can't...ang hirap magpakatatag..hindi ko na alam gagawin ko
" Hayss,Okay...basta kumain ka na lang kapag gusto mo ha?samahan ko lang sina Tita don " Paalam niya sabay yakap sakin
She stands up and walk towards the direction where the family members are
But something made her and i stopped,Ashtine from walking and me from thinking
" So this has been what were you doing to yourself"
I immedietly turned my head towards that voice
And there she was,
" Yumi " i whispered under my breath,And upon seeing her feels like the burden on my chest lifts up
" Not eating on time nor taking care of yourself" she continued
And by that,my tears came back....rolling down one after another...i was crying
I hurriedly stands up and ran towards her,My vision is blurry but i ignored it
She didn't open her arms like she used to but she holds me tight when i jumped into her for a long tight embrace
Ghaaaad,i miss this...i miss her warmth,her i miss her so much
I heard her sighed before tighting her embrace,and i felt her hand caressing my back
" Shhhhhh,tahan na.." then i heard her said and because of that i tightened my eyes and inhaled her scent
" I i i m-miss you s-so m-much " i said between my sobs
She holds the back of my head and said
" Im here na "
We broke the hug after some minutes,Magkahawak kamay kaming pumunta sa kinaroroonan nila Mami
They all look shocked when they saw us together and holding hands
Yong tatlo,Ashtine,Fatima at Heart nanunuksong mga tingin pero bakas sa mukha nila na masaya sila
Lumapit kami kay Mami,Yumi greeted her and Hugged her while still holding my hand
" My deepest Condolence Mmy " She said
Mami smiled and holds Yumi's Face
" Im glad you came anak,Your Dad will be so happy " Mami said while looking at us
After some talk with them...nagpaalam si Yumi...nataranta ako akala ko aalis na siya but
" Guys,Mmy...Una na muna kami pwede?kami ni Bianca...."
She looks at me
" She needs rest and she needs to eat" she said firmly while looking at me
Napayuko na lang ako,Syempre susunod ako no
Well pumayag naman si Mami...Mas gusto nga daw niya yon eh
So she made me choose kung sa room na lang ba dto kung saan naka burol si Dadi o sa bahay...i choose the house kase mas komportable ako don
Then she leads me to her car,and opens the door for me like always
Few minutes after nakarating na kami sa bahay,walang tao dahil nasa burol silang lahat pati sina nanay
She holds my hand habang naglalakad kami papasok sa bahay,she's not talking though
But i can feel her emotions and somehow i understand it without us talking...and that's enough
We're still holding hands nong nasa loob na kami ng kuwarto ko
" Do you wanna get change first before eating?or mamayang matutulog ka na lang?" She casually asked
" M-matutulog t-talaga ako?" I asked
" Why?may iba pa ba?" She questioned
Uhmm,oo nga,sabi ko nga
" U-uhh w-wala naman" i stuttered
Hoooooooo ghaaaad
Naupo siya sa bed,at ako naman pumasok sa bathroom para mag bihis
Nang lumabas ako,may nakahandang food na sa table ko
" Come on,kumain ka na " she said while putting down the water
Tumango ako at naupo na sa harap niya
The whole eating is silent,walang nagsalita but it wasn't awkward at all
After that she stands up beside my bed tas ako kinuha ko saglit yong hairbrush which is nasa side table na katapat niya
And when i turned back,I didn't know na sobrang lapit na ng mga mukha namin
And there it goes,the familiar feeling
Heartbeating madly on my chest
And the urge to kiss her
She's intensely staring at my eyes so do i
Until her eyes darted to my slightly opened lips
And then naramdaman ko na lang na we're kissing aggressively
The next thing i knew,She's taking my clothes off....and im not complaining at all
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Hey guys,it's been a while....
Uhmm soo much happening and as much as i love this story and i love you guys,this story is coming to an end...due to some reasons hehe
Have a goodnight 😊
