Wild Eyes (E. Olsen)

It's Starting To Show

A/N: 📍ANGST ANGST ANGST📍Unedited. 

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Alycia's POV

I lead us to my temporary room at Scarlett's house and I let Lizzie walk further into my room while I close the door behind me. I stay where I'm standing watching Lizzie pace back and forth in front of my bed. I try to gauge what's Lizzie's thinking by observing her body language and so far she seems tense, confused, and conflicted. 

"Lizzie?" I say trying to snap her out of the endless thoughts that I see taking over her. "What did you want to talk about?" I continue as I stand awkwardly. 

"Where do we even start Alycia?" I cringe slightly at how she says my name. Okay, so she's mad. I mean, who wouldn't be mad if you just heard radio silence from your so-called best friend. 

"I don't exactly know what you want me to say," it turns out that was the wrong thing to say because Lizzie's head snaps at me with a dangerous glint of anger in her eyes. 

"You haven't talked to me in months and you're telling me that you don't know what to say? Are you kidding me right now?" she spits out and her fisted hands don't go unnoticed by me. 

"Okay, so you want to catch up on what we've been up to for the last few months? Sure, let's do that," I have no stopping what came out of my mouth, and the moment that I had said them I knew I'm done for. 

"Don't you dare fucking mock me," Lizzie's voice sounds dangerously calm forcing me to swallow thickly. 

"Elizabeth, tell me what you want me to say." 

"How about you start with the why. Why did you disappear from my life? Why did I not hear from you?" 

I shake my head at her, "I had to deal with something that-" 

"That I couldn't know. I know, everyone has been fucking telling me that same line every damn day," she says cutting me off. "I thought we told each other everything? I thought you were my best friend? Did I do something that made you stay away from me? Please tell me Alycia because I've been trying to rack my brain." 

"Elizabeth, you didn't do anything," it's not a complete lie but it's not the complete truth either. "We do tell each other everything except for this matter Liz. Some things are better left unsaid and it has to be said at the right time which is not anytime soon. I am your best friend, I will always be here you know that. Like I said in my letter if I end up not reaching out to you just know that I will always come home to you. And this is me coming home to you Lizzie."

"You left me," her voice cracks her emotions turning from anger to hurt and I walk closer to her to comfort her. 

"I'm here," I reassure her as I stop in front of her, not sure if I should wrap my arms around her. "I'm coming home to you, Liz."

She looks into my eyes and her eyes are filled with unshed tears which I'm sure are a reflection of my own. She steps closer to me to the point that we both can feel our breaths fan over our lips,  "you can't," she whispers, "you can't leave again." 

"I won't, I won't ever dream of it," I whisper back and watch as a tear falls from her beautiful eyes. I bring my hand up cupping the side of her face as I wipe away her tear with my thumb. My heart melts at her closing her eyes as she leans her face into my touch. I close my eyes letting my unshed tears fall freely and I let out a breath as I lean my forehead on hers. 

We stand there for a few minutes until Lizzie rests her hand on my sternum pulling away slightly to look into my eyes. I watch her eyes flicker from both my eyes and I watch as a new wave of emotion that I couldn't decipher flash behind her eyes. My heart immediately started beating double time when I watch as her eyes flicker down to my lips watching it for a few seconds before it flickers back to my eyes.