Wild Eyes (E. Olsen)

A Date?

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December 29th

Lizzie's POV

It's been a day since Scarlett's friendsmas party. A day since I've seen Alycia for the first time in months. A day since we had our emotional talk. A day since I almost kissed her. And a day since I've talked to her last. 

After our moment in her room that night, we didn't get any chance to talk again for the rest of the party. Robbie was attached to my hip and that Eliza chick was attached to Alycia's. I don't know why I was annoyed at Robbie for never leaving my side as well as Eliza following Alycia like a possessive girlfriend. I honestly think I just missed Alycia and wanted to talk to her and spend time with her without everyone else trying to grab our attention away from each other. That had to be the reason, right? 

I have dinner plans with Scarlett over at her place tonight and she didn't specify Alycia being there, but she's staying at Scar's place so I only imagine her joining us for dinner. It's a relief to know that I can have her attention again but the pressing question is if we should bring up the almost kissed. I feel like I should, maybe clear the air? Apologize for stepping out of line? 

My stomach twists at the thought of her telling me that it meant nothing to her. I know it meant nothing but the mere thought that she thinks that way doesn't sit right with me. But then how can I think that when I tell myself it meant nothing? I'm being so hypocritical right now but I can't help what I feel and I hate it. I've never felt so possessive and confused about a person this much in my life, not with my exes and definitely not with my fiance, and I'm kind of terrified to find out why.

I do some computer work, for the time being, making sure to get back to some important emails and leaving the rest for after my Christmas break. I then do some cleaning around my sister's house and start loading the laundry into the washer. The twins had been called in for an emergency meeting this morning and they should be done and back here by lunchtime. Robbie is out in the studio writing and recording for their bands' upcoming album. I look at the time and decide to start cooking lunch now for it to be ready by the time my sister walks through the front door. 

I decide on making a simple balanced lunch, caramelized salmon and sweet potato, quinoa on the side as well as some asparagus. The twins walk through the front door right after I finish plating our food. "Lunch is ready girls," I yell out to them.  

"Wow, it smells great in here," MK comments walking into the kitchen. "That looks hella healthy and good," Ashley compliments. 

"Thank you very much," I smile proudly. "Water or something else?" I ask and I get a chorus of 'water' in return. 

We dig in our food and quickly fall into an easy conversation with each other, talking about our morning and what it consisted of. It was a pleasant conversation until one of my sisters brings up the topic of my best friend who I've been trying to distract myself from thinking about all morning. 

"What about her?" I try asking nonchalantly as I shove asparagus in my mouth. "Have you two talked since the party?" they ask and I almost panic thinking they somehow found out what went down between Alycia and me but I remind myself that they know nothing at all. 

 "No, we haven't. Why?" I furrow my eyebrow, why should they be concerned about that if they had no clue at all?

"Well, you were so distressed the last few months not being able to talk to her, text her, or see her. I thought you would have jumped at the opportunity to spam her phone 24/7 now that you've seen each other," Ashley explains.