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                There was a girl who lived in a small province town. She always smiles and loves her parents. When she was little, she learn about who to write numbers, letters, her name, how to count before going to kindergarten. She was friendly but don't know how to interact with others. She was shy. She knows about English at that time even though just a few details. She didn't enter nursery but jumped to grade 1. That time, she already know how to read. Even the teacher said, "You shouldn't know how to read around your age." 

                When she entered grade 2, she was being bullied. She did everything just to be liked by her classmate. She even explores on her own. She searches everything to find answers and proof. As time goes by, she made friends with her classmate all throughout the years.

                When she entered high school, everything changes. She learns new things but in a bad way. Just to be close with others. She was trying everything with her might. Still shy but trying her best just to be one of them.  After graduating grade 10, everything changes.

                At that time, there was a world crisis happening. A dark pandemic some called. We all know it as Covid-19. At the start, she will finish everything in her studies until suddenly it started to fade away all her determination, all her motivations, all of it lost.  It got worst and worst each day forgetting all her motivation. She was now all grown up but always get shouted at by her parents for doing so.  Her mother and her always fight because of it...

                 She want to repay them but she was still lost even her motivation to go on. Every question, every word, all there was left for her is the word "I don't know". Now, she wanted to reverse and do everything in the right way. But she was frightened it will still happen like it was a cycle. 

                   She wanted to write everything to calm her down and relax. Her writing hides everything she doesn't want to tell like being hurt. She felt that she deserves it because of what she did to her parents, for being a burden to them. And now she was writing everything to find herself back from where and how did it start to fade her away.