I had just moved here it had only been 3 days and I was starting school tomorrow and already I had ruined some guys day by bumping into him and spilling my drink all over him.
I tried being chill and cool with having coke and popcorn on me. But he was having none of it. He had basically glared at me and then purposely hit my shoulder calling me a freak. His friend had apologized for him but it didn't really matter.
I walked home picking popcorn out of my hair. My life has turned horrid since me mom died of cancer and before that aswell I guess and that was cause of 2 reasons.
I didn't exactly dress like a normal guy would I liked pink and girly things. I loved wearing dresses and skirts and all kinds of different girl clothes. I didn't wear them when I went out much. I wanted to but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I got beat up once when I wore a dress to school also A reason why I switched schools and cause I'm gay.
My dad abused me everyday and comes drunk almost everyday and beats me for hours and then leaves me curled up crying. My mom was fine with me bein girly and gay but my dad wasnt at all. He never hit me in front of my mom but when she was at work or something he always beat me up and yelled at me and now since my mom was gone that's all he did when I wasn't at school. I guess I deserved it for being a weird son but I didn't wanna change my style and I couldn't really control my sexuality.
I opened the door to my house as quiet as possible. I didn't want my dad knowing I had snuck out. I had snuck out cause I wanted to relax and not feel like I was in jail.
I quickly darted halfway up the stairs until someone pulled me back by the back of my collar pulling me down the stairs.
"You think you can sneak out like that and think I didn't notice you lil shit" he says pushing up into the wall.
"You already get enough punishment for bein a faggot but looks like you want more" he says and punching me in the stomach a few times and then slapping me across my face.
"Fag" he growls and walks off into the kitchen.
I groaned going up the stairs breathing heavily.
I went into the bathroom and looking at the bruise the slap had left on my face. I sighed and took of my shirt and pants looking at myself in the mirror with disgust. I was so ugly and fat. My stomach had bruises on it. My boxers where covering the scars I had on my thighs from cutting. I took the bracelets I was wearing on my wrists off and look at my scarred wrists. I took my phone case off my phone and out dropped my razor my bestfriend.
I took it in my hand and slid it across my wrist.
"1 cut for being gay"
"2 cuts for being a horrid son"
"3 cuts for being a worthless nobody"
"4 cuts for having no friends"
"5 cuts for being so weak and pathetic"
I had made 6 cuts on my left arm and 15 on my right arm. I bandaged my arm up so the blood wouldn't go everywhere and slipped on a big pink shirt and some shorts climbing into bed tears in my eyes.
Morning
"Faggot fucking get up and leave already" I heard my dad yell from downstairs.
I groaned and turned on my side grabbing my phone and rubbing me eyes looking at the screen. It was 6:45 I had a bit of time before my alarm was gonna go off but I got up anyways being at school early on the first day then late was better anyways and it beat getting yelled at by my dad for no reason.
I took a quick shower, brushed my teeth and quickly dried my hair. I put my black nirvana muscle tee and some purple skinny jeans on and did my hair. I also grabbed a bunch of bracelets to cover my scars. I grabbed my bag and phone and went downstairs putting on my pink converse and opening the door and slamming it closed to indicat my dad that I had left.
I didnt really care I hadnt eaten I had been eating veryless since my mother died. I walked to school humming a song by Green Day.
It was only a 10 minutes walk so it didnt take a long time. I nervously walked up to the front of school opening the doors people where outside and inside in groups or just walking to their locker with a friend or 2.
I saw a sign that said office and went in.
"Um Hi im Luke Hemmings im new here" I say quickly.
The lady smiles at me "of course now Mr.Hemmings here is your schedule and I have assigned you a partner that will help for the next few days so you dont get lost and know what to do understand.
I nod and she smiles "Alright Mr.Hood please come and meet your partner Mr.Hemmings" she says and right when she said that the guy who had apoligized for his friend walked threw the door and smiled at me and I smiled back lightly.
"Luke that is Calum and Calum that is Luke Alright you 2 should get going you shouldnt be late" she says and Calum grabs my hand and pulls me out of the office dragging be done the hall.
"Um Calum can you let go now" I say trying to pull my hand away.
"Oh ya sorry" he says letting go of it.
"Its fine so you go to this school" I ask.
"Yup and before you ask yes the guy who you bumped into also goes here and his names Michael" he says looking at me.
"Oh okay" I say a bit nervously.
"Hey dont worry he wont do anything harsh he aint like that but stay out of his way something bout you he really hates but im good i'll actually really like to be friends with you" he says giving me a smile at the end.
I just smile back nodding someone already hated me and I hadnt even done something really mean or stupid but thats just my badluck.
"Okay soooo" he says taking my schedule "your first class is with me and Michael we have Math s'all good right" he asks looking at me.
I nod and he frowns stepping closer to me and looking at my cheek and touching it lightly and then looking at his finger. My eyes go wide and I panic inside.
"Why are you wearing makeup" he says looking at his finger then me.
I bite my lip ring looking down and feel him taking a bit more off my cheek.
"Lukeee" I hear him say slowly "Why do you have a bruise on your face" he asks and I look up at him seeing him frowning and concerned.
"Its um nothing I fell thats all" I say taking a small step back.
He frowns at me but nods "Alright lets go to the bathroom quickly if you wanna recover it we got a few minutes and besides its your first day you'll be excused and ill be excused with you so its all good" he says and I nod.
He gives me a small smile and grabs my hand starts leading me to the washroom I guessed. He opens the door and stands outside "I'll guard so no one comes in" and I nod going inside and reapplying everything and come back out.
"You good"he asks and I nod.
"Cmon dude speakkkk" Calum says poking me and the bell suddenly rings
Sorry and can we go to class now" I ask.
"Sures cmon then" he says taking my hand and taking me to the classroom.
