KAILYN POV
After Mashawn left the office, I cried. A lot. And really thought about everything, I thought about how I'm still struggling for money even with Mashawn's help, it's been real dreary these past two months, and it's forcing me to think about going back home to Saint Louis. My mom and I have even worked out a potential plan if I do go back and it sure sounds better than what's going on here. Cause here I feel so unwanted and lonely it's sickening.
"I FUCKING HATE HIM!" Mikayla screamed as she burst into the office.
"I hate him too, but what happened?" I asked as I got up from the couch so she could sit.
"So I went out to eat with my friend Gerald so I could get advice on what to do and Marvin comes out of nowhere screaming and like "Who is he?" "Why are y'all here?" and all that shit and he almost fought him, but I had to tell him to leave. But the crazy part is I think he was with Nina at the baby store across the street. So like I said, I HATE HIM!" she explained as she plopped down on the couch.
"Compared to my day, you've had a picnic girl." I scoffed.
"What happened to you?" she asked looking at me curiously.
"I told Mashawn how I really felt for him and then he was like I don't wanna hurt you and kissed me and then waked out. I was so mortified I could have you died. I honestly just got done crying." I explained. Then out of the blue, I heard Mikayla burst out laughing and instantly pissed me off. I didn't see anything funny about this at all.
"I promise I'm not laughing at you, it's just funny how fucked up you are because of these niggas out here." she explained as she continued to laugh.
I raised an eyebrow and asked "What do you mean?"
"I mean" she got up from her seat "When we were younger, I admired you, I looked up to you because you did something I couldn't do, you never let no dude ruin you. You were strong and never let a guy shake you. There were countless times when a dude would try to ruin you but you know what you did? You shook it off. You rose above all the bullshit and you grew from it, you got better. Now me sitting here depressed and crying cause of Marvin, that's to be expected cause I mean I'm Mikayla. I've always been like this, but dammit you're Kailyn. You're the strong one and the one who doesn't care what these niggas got to say about her cause she's more valuable than their words. So Kailyn just answer me this, What the hell happened to you?"
"I came here, but don't worry I'm gone be leaving here soon." I answered as I walked out of the office in a pool of tears.
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MASHAWN POV
I got a knock on my door and saw it was Marvin and quickly opened the door. "Wassup bro?" I greeted somberly.
"Sup." I replied " You gotta beer?" he asked as he sat at the island in the kitchen. I handed a beer from the fridge and he sighed "I think me and Mikayla really done."
"Why you say that?" I ask as I take a sip from my beer.
"Cause she was just on a date with some clown." he scoffed.
"Damn already? Did you know the dude?"
"He looked a little familiar but I'm not sure. If it wasn't for her stopping me, I was gone beat the nigga ass."
"Man fuck that, you still should of kicked his ass. But how's Nina doing?"
"She cool real excited for the baby, but Angie broke up with her after she found out she was pregnant."
"Well at least she happy, or at least sort of is."
"What's wrong with you?" he asked looking up at me with a raised eyebrow.
"Nothing, why you ask? I lied.
"Cause any other time you hearing that Nina and Angie broke up would be the best news and you would probably say some perverted shit, but today you just like awe. Wassup?"
"Kailyn told me she wants to be with me." I admitted.
"Well she either crazy or must be really feeling you. Don't she know that you a fucking dog?' he asked with a quick chuckle.
"It's probably both." I shrugged.
"So what did you say?"
"I told her I couldn't make that move with her cause I didn't wanna hurt her, she's actually one of the few people I actually give a damn about."
"Well it's good you told her that cause if she knew half the shit you be doing she'd never wanna see you again. Does she know about you and Rose?"
"Nahh and I know if I tell her she'd hate me just like Rose does."
"You wanna know what I think?" Marvin asked as he got out of his seat.
"Nahh, but I know you gone tell me anyway.' I answered with a chuckle.
"You right, but look first off I think that you should take some time alone to get your mind right. And Shawn I mean really alone, like no texting hoes you meet st the store or fucking some randoms you see at the club. And the second thing I think you should do is go talk to your dad. I know that's the last thing you wanna do, but you got to talk to him to get some closure cause whether you admit it or not, you still holding a grudge against him and hating him for what he's done almost 20 years ago." he informed. Just the mention of him made me sick to my stomach. I'm not shy to say I hate him and wished he was dead and had told myself I was content with never seeing him again, but maybe just maybe it would be good for me.
"I don't know Marv, I haven't seen him since he left us, I don't know if I can handle seeing him." I admit begrudgingly.
"I'll go with you if you want me to." Marv offered.
"Man I don't even know if he's alive." I lied. I knew he was still alive and living in Saint Louis.
"Aye you never know, but look I'm bout to head out and go to the gym. You wanna come?" Marvin asked as he began to head to the door. I shook my head no and escorted him out.
After Marvin left, I took out a blunt and started smoking and thinking. Maybe he was right about me going back to Saint Louis to see my dad, but my pride almost wouldn't allow me to. I mean, what good would it do going back there? I then laid on my bed and stared at the ceiling and thinking of all the possible outcomes that could occur if I was to go back and after all my thinking, I made my decision and picked up my phone.
Nina: Yes Shawn?
Mashawn: Can you book me for the next flight to Saint Louis?
