MARVIN POV
I've been thinking a lot lately and decided that I was gone make one more attempt to be with Mikayla and if it doesn't work, then I would leave her be. It's no point of pressuring somebody who doesn't want the same thing as you do. So, I drove over to Kailyn's apartment hoping Mikayla would be there.
"What Marvin?" she asked as she opened the door.
"Can I please just come in?" I asked somberly. She rolled her eyes but still allowed me in. "What Gerald not here?" I joked as I stepped into the apartment.
"What do you want Marvin?" she asked irritably as she folded her arms.
"Look, I know you still don't forgive me and honestly if I were you I wouldn't forgive me either,but at least acknowledge that I'm trying here. You know that I love you more than anything and regret what happened, but damn I can't take none of it back. I wish you'd just give me another shot so we could make this work but if you don't want to then" I shrugged "It is what is." I explained
"It is what it is? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! We got damn near 5 years of history and when you bout to lose me entirely, all you can say is "It is what is." Wow."
"Mikayla what the hell am I supposed to say?! I've begged, pleaded, cried, and did everything I could to get you back but you keep shutting me down! I don't understand why I'd keep trying if you don't even want us to be together!"
"WHO SAID I DIDN'T WANT US TO BE TOGETHER?" she yelled.
"YOUR ACTIONS! If you wanted us to be together we'd be together!" I explained.
"So you're telling me that if I woulda cheated on you and got pregnant by another nigga you'd take me back after it happened? You'd be comfortable that the first baby I had wasn't yours?" she asked before she inevitably broke down. What she said really got to me. She's right, I wouldn't take her back if she had gotten pregnant by another dude. Honestly, that shit would fuck me up inside.
"Mikayla, I'm so sorry." I apologized as I walked over to her trying to console her and surprisingly she allowed me to do it. While she cried I held and rocked her in my arms. "We can take it as slow as you want to Mikayla cause I'm not going nowhere." I whispered.
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MASHAWN POW
As soon as the plane landed I was preparing to make a call until I saw Kailyn carrying her luggage preparing to get on a plane. "Kailyn what are you doing?" I asked as she prepared to get in line to board the plane. She looked up at me and scoffed attempting to get past me but I wouldn't allow her to.
"Leave me alone Mashawn!" she scoffed.
"Kailyn, can I please just talk to you?" I pleaded. When I first asked she didn't look interested and tried to get in line but I pleaded again "Please Kailyn." she sighed and sat her stuff down and followed me to the seating area.
"Now what do you want?" she asked.
"Kailyn I'm fucked up, okay? I'm a low-down, cheating, cold hearted, ignorant piece of shit, and I normally don't give a damn about anybody but myself."
"WOW! WHAT MADE YOU REALIZE THAT?" she asked sarcastically.
"I just got back from visiting my dad." I replied somberly.
"Hmm." she replied.
"He told me he didn't love us and that he's not sorry for leaving us or nothing."
"I'm sorry to hear that."
"It made me realize something too."
"And what is that?" she asked with a raised eyebrow.
"That" I took her hand "I want you to be mine. I want you to help me change for the better cause that petty shit and going out every night can't compare to the times I spent time with you. I need you Kailyn." I admitted.
"How do I know that you're being honest?" she asked with a roll of the eyes.
"Cause I'm gone be honest now" I sighed "Them two months we were having sex, I had this girl named Rose living with me cause she was easy sex. I was still talking to females too and was constantly going out meeting people, I smoke a lot of weed, I've had a history of being violent to women, I have nightmares at night about my family at least once a week, and sometimes I just wanna be alone with my music." I admitted. Kailyn looked shocked after hearing my confessions and I could tell she wanted to cry. "Kailyn, I know that I ain't shit to you right now, and might not be for awhile but I need you to give me this chance." I pleaded.
"I don't know what to say." Kailyn answered.
"Please just say you'll give me a shot." I beg as I look her in the eye. I saw a tear shed from her eye and used my thumb to wipe it away. She looked back at the ground and then to the line of people boarding the plane.
"I" she sighed "I'm gonna miss my flight." she finally said as she walked into the line leaving me hurt and rejected. And as she got into the plane, she didn't even look back at me.
